Clean after 20 plus years of banging brown

[nznity]

I dunno Im experiencing pleasure, I dont have any motivation in the mornings but I just force myself to do shit because it would be unbearable if I didn't. I do a lot of exercise and trying to learn new things, like doing things left handed or trying to play music, anything really. I just woke up at 1:30AM feeling pretty shitty but I feel like I could take a month more of this before I start wondering if Ill ever feel more normal, I dont expect to feel like my old self for years and im okay with that so Im not to worried about speedy progress. Id imagine its probably worse cold turkeying though, my brain has been adjusting to a very mild withdrawal for pretty much my whole year long taper, also only been a week clean for me so it might get worse

Give it 2 months AND youll be 70% recovered. Trust me, I've coldturkeyed from 2 years constant 200mg IV morphine errday AND it toook me aroubd that to feel somewhat normal. This Time i tapered to 20mg, Been reducing my intake since november. Everytime it's harder than the previous habit especially if u have chronic pain.

 

[Shady's Fox]

Stay clean, brother. 12 yrs here. Life's too beautiful for this kind of pain.