Eveleivibe
Ex-Bluelighter
Hiya,
I'm asking for advice. I got back on citalopram in June; firstly 20mg n after my OD attempt (which I'm starting to regret didn't work) was put up to 40mg.
Now I know it stops the anxiety, other depressive thoughts it hasn't stopped emptiness, anger, feelings of exclusion n has made me so tired I'm sleeping most of the day n so impulsive. On here I've had two permabans, tried benzos which I'm not sure I'd have tried off citalopram.
When off i had started exercising, swimming, getting on with people here.
But it's like the citalopram makes me numb. I didnt even cry at my Taid's funeral - is that normal????
But when I'm doing well. I mean when im fit, exercising etc i self-sabatage it because the daily guilt is overwhelming that i don't deserve this n when im happy I'm so petrifoed of it I destroy it because i know it wont last.
Citaloram isnt working but I'm so absolutely terrified of when the fog lift of my actions whilst on it that the anxiety will overwhelm me n I'm
Not sure what I'm to do.
Kinda scared. I know i was stupid going on it but i could not face the anxiety, fear n depression without it. Feel kinda trapped
Evey
I'm asking for advice. I got back on citalopram in June; firstly 20mg n after my OD attempt (which I'm starting to regret didn't work) was put up to 40mg.
Now I know it stops the anxiety, other depressive thoughts it hasn't stopped emptiness, anger, feelings of exclusion n has made me so tired I'm sleeping most of the day n so impulsive. On here I've had two permabans, tried benzos which I'm not sure I'd have tried off citalopram.
When off i had started exercising, swimming, getting on with people here.
But it's like the citalopram makes me numb. I didnt even cry at my Taid's funeral - is that normal????
But when I'm doing well. I mean when im fit, exercising etc i self-sabatage it because the daily guilt is overwhelming that i don't deserve this n when im happy I'm so petrifoed of it I destroy it because i know it wont last.
Citaloram isnt working but I'm so absolutely terrified of when the fog lift of my actions whilst on it that the anxiety will overwhelm me n I'm
Not sure what I'm to do.
Kinda scared. I know i was stupid going on it but i could not face the anxiety, fear n depression without it. Feel kinda trapped
Evey