ladymortua
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Nov 17, 2016
- Messages
- 4
Hey guys...
Ive had my account for a while i think. Idk i dont really remember when exactly i created it but anyways, i just turned 26, from NJ- born and raised about 25 min from CMD ofc.. ive been using H on and off since probably the age of 19 and before that obviously pills. Im a female so i thank god i never brought kids into this hell. im like 4 weeks clean off of H.. other than maybe use once each week. I'm prescribed suboxone now. Its my first time being on it as a maintenance thing. The only other time i had it was in detox for 5 days before going to rehab. So far i think im feeling better. Dont really crave. I dont go pick up unless someone needs me to and i will benefit from it but it ends up causing me to use inbetween doses even tho im not spending my own money. Sigh. We all struggle and have our downfalls i guess. I just feel like im getting too old for this shit. I want stability. The one thing i can honestly say thats helped me was adopting my dog. Im living in my van right now with him trying to get it together, and i know im getting there. Cant wait to taper off of this shit.
So... sup guys?
Edit: just looked... I've had this account since nov 16' and just now posting for the first time haha
Ive had my account for a while i think. Idk i dont really remember when exactly i created it but anyways, i just turned 26, from NJ- born and raised about 25 min from CMD ofc.. ive been using H on and off since probably the age of 19 and before that obviously pills. Im a female so i thank god i never brought kids into this hell. im like 4 weeks clean off of H.. other than maybe use once each week. I'm prescribed suboxone now. Its my first time being on it as a maintenance thing. The only other time i had it was in detox for 5 days before going to rehab. So far i think im feeling better. Dont really crave. I dont go pick up unless someone needs me to and i will benefit from it but it ends up causing me to use inbetween doses even tho im not spending my own money. Sigh. We all struggle and have our downfalls i guess. I just feel like im getting too old for this shit. I want stability. The one thing i can honestly say thats helped me was adopting my dog. Im living in my van right now with him trying to get it together, and i know im getting there. Cant wait to taper off of this shit.
So... sup guys?
Edit: just looked... I've had this account since nov 16' and just now posting for the first time haha
