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Chipping/Binging Heroin Use for Long Time?

After going to the bathroom I think I'm going to be having slight withdrawal symptoms.

Here's to them being nothing noteworthy.
 
Update:

I think that was the longest heroin binge I have ever done in my life. I had used daily for approximately a month, and like only 4 days before that I had come off another binge. Probably unconnected, but whatever.

Anyways, I felt shitty starting 2 days after my last shot. I had a hard time sleeping, really restless, shitty sleep, and had cold sweat. I felt slightly, uncomfortably cold. As I've said before, I have pretty severe insomnia so it wasn't anything new to me. But I had this feeling that this insomnia was from something else. It felt different than my normal insomnia. The end result is the same, and I still got the same amount of sleep as always, but something just didn't feel as familiar. Only lasted one day, or more accurately, about 12 hours.

Anyways that's all. I guess that is my first brush in with any withdrawal symptoms of any sort. I always sorta felt kinda cold and restless after my binges, but this time I could definitely tell why. I have insomnia and from a cold area so it wasn't anything I'm not used to, I'm sure someone who doesn't have insomnia and from like Florida would go crazy. The symptoms were pretty mild though, and not really a big deal at all.

Just this time I actually felt something, as opposed to nothing at all. Mild, very mild, but still something there. I imagine hardcore withdrawal from a big habit must be hell...

Anyways, no desire to use now. I'm sure it'll be a while before I pick up again.
 
Man I envy your wd's. Mine are fucking horrible. I get extremely cold. Having my thyroid removed exacerbates this I think. I get major anxiety attacks, insomnia, restless, sneezing, runny nose; I get very emotional (weepy). Then there's the stomach craps, the unending trips to the bathroom, body aches. I hate the whole thing. I haven't been in total wd for a long long time. I take prescribed pain pills and will probably take them the rest of my life and I have a bitch of a time controlling my intake so that I won't go into wd. I usually binge the first week and then take just enough to get by for the next 3 weeks. Of course I always try to get my hands on any other opioid that I can.
 
anybody inthe dope game can do very well if their disiplined, but after five, six, ten years of rolling the dice the might get burned....badly. but then again it could be the perfect love afaire and go on forever, an ever.
 
thugpassion said:
anybody inthe dope game can do very well if their disiplined, but after five, six, ten years of rolling the dice the might get burned....badly. but then again it could be the perfect love afaire and go on forever, an ever.
I think the last part of your post is what all opiate users strive for but so few attain. I give my meds to my gf to dole out to me two days at a time. It takes the pressure off of me. Even then I usually take 14 of my 16 pills the first day and 2 the second, so even now I can't control my intake for even two days.
I suck :\
 
No doubt it is possible to chip long term but if you are going to use consecutive days then just forget about it. Theodore I am glad you realize that you have already become mentally addicted, no shame in that. You are basically at the cross roads here, do you pick up the needle again in a month or two or can you see where this is ineveitably headed and use the scare to get straight?

The mental addiction is only going to become more entrenched in your psyche and more difficult to let go of. I hate to say it but you have failed as a chiper and its time to decide if you want to be a junky or not. In my mind there is no such thing as a chipper that IV's. There is nothing casual or recreational about sticking a piece of metal into your body to get high, that should have been your first alert. My advice is to quit but I doubt that will happen so the second bit of advice is to not shoot anymore. You siad you like a buzz and not a full junk nod, so take atvantage of this and forget the needles, snorting will give that to you. Just be carefull man, its easy to get caught up when your lonely, believe me I know. And remember that shooting dope does not exactly make you bachelor number one with most ladies.
 
Whatever I'll be a junky then. I'm going to be clean for a good while, I don't have any desire to use at the moment.

But I'm sure sometime in the future I'll be back at it again. Oh well.

I liked your post alot though theWorldWithin.
 
I know people say 'knowledge is power' but taking heroin once meant that I knew of an effective escape route from my own emotions. It frightened me.
 
haribo1 said:
I know people say 'knowledge is power' but taking heroin once meant that I knew of an effective escape route from my own emotions. It frightened me.
A very exact, rational way of putting it... H makes everything so much better, enjoyable, relaxing... the list goes on and on...

The nod... to sleep the sleep of angels... its beautiful, but dangerous, be careful. Im still a newbie, but love it to much to put the needle down yet as well...
 
quote: it almost makes me cringe inside when I hear someone say that they have their drug use under control. I know you know why some of us would feel this way. You have had users tell you that they were under control and I'm sure there was that 'yea right' factor coming from inside you whether you spoke you mind or not. -end quote

dude, some people REALLY do have their use under control, infact i wouldnt even say they use. they get high occasionaly when its around. for most of us, this is impossible. i know i am a straihgt up addict to opies and benzos.......yet i love cigs to death, but i quit them whenever i want/just smoke when i feel like it, then i probably wont buy another pack for a month up to several years, then i might get some more. same with meth, ive only used it about 8 times in my life, and its been fucking great! i just put MONTHS inbetween binges. the only drugs i have severe difficulty controlign myself with is opiates and benzos. and teh benzos, not cause i like to eat them to get high, but becasue ive been prescribed them the past 5 yeras daily, and the best i can do is taper a few mg then qu9it for 2 days tops then ill usualy take 8 and feel pretty decent actualy. i get my hydros filled though, and they are gone in 2 days. i get kratom, the whole sacks gone that night. i get 3 oc 80s, they are all going up my nose THAT night, or i mnight be nice and share .5-1 pill. i love poppy seed tea better than any other opiate, and the addictions much mroe comfortable because it lasts like 24 hours or more sometimes, so i never get sick, i never wake up in wd, and seeds are so strong i hardly ever change my dose. back in the day it used to be 1 pound tops and that was the most perfect nodding blacking out high ever. now its quarter pound to 2 pounds a day, and i get them by the 25 pound case so i can maintain those for about a week. fuck i would kill to get on methadone....i have severe chronic pain, my doc wont prescribe me enough to actualy do anything ( i get 4 lortab 7.5s a day, but it takes me at least 8 to get high. id rather take 16 norcos and get 160 mg hydro in me) and im so sick of being so fucking sick then scoring somthing for just a couple days then being sicker than fuck again. i would die to get on methadone or subox, but i have no insurance, and theres no way the doc will prescribe me mdone, hes already too fucking obssesive and stingy about giving out hydros. i can only get a nine day supply so i get 36 pills every nine days. i usualy take 80-300 mg of hydro/or oral morphine so my tolerance is pretty fucked, but i sincerely do need something for the pain. i keep wondering:be a junkie my whole life taking it every day and jsut not getting sick? keep chipping through this miserable existance? or stop/which is unrealistic cause i hurt so bad i cant even stand up without opies there is no way i coul make it to work. this next week after i finish up a 25 pund case of poppy seeds im switching to just kratom becasue that provides nice pain relief, gets me nice and high, and the wds are said to be NOTHING compared to hydro or something you know.
 
my dream, and i know it sounds completely unrealistic, is to get to the point where i am no longer physicaly dependent, and no longer psychological either......then, if i can just put some bottles of hydrosand kpins in a droor somewhere and forget abuot them. then, only dose one time a week. that owuld be heaven but i dont think i have the willpower to do it, so my sad negative outlook is that i mecome more and more addicted and stay that way for life, or i GET THE FUCK OFF NOW as painful as it might be. sucks too cause i know ill crave tehm for months even years after quitting. lifes hell so i wanna give in and be a lover to opium, but i know for a fact i would in a matter of no time at all be taking them just to keep from being sick just barely helping, or at worst, i just wouldnt feel ANYTHING off them (like my kpins) and be using them. that seems like a pointless and numbing addiction. i hate the kpin addiction not due to mental reasons, but the wds are a fuck. doing really good though im finaly down to 2 mg a day instead of 8-20.
its time to quit doing SHIT, and stick to what i first fell in love with: green, shrooms, and smokes. well i fell in love wiht opium at that same young age of 9 too, s i dont know. maybe it will be my friend for life.

sorry how long this is, just one more thing...
its teh biggest mistake EVER to let anyone know you are prescribed good shit like hydros. especialy someone you really love, but there tolerance is worse than yours, there twice as dope sick, and they even count on their calendat when im going to get my shit filled and right on time they are there to get there share...so then i run out early and hate life. I DONT want to know whos got painpills becasue you always end up abusing the source, and i FUCKIGN hate people abusing me as a source, cause if it were up to me i wouldnt give a single pill away ever. but its not up to me becasue i was a stupid fuck, slipped, and let junkies know what i had......and if you knew me its just my nature: i can not turn down another human being. god especialthe ones that ask (brothers and very best friends). i wish to hell tehre was someway i wasnt expected to give a third of my stash away at least EVERY time i gett them filled. damn it would just be so nice to actualy have enough pills that the pharmacists would quit bitching me the fuck out for filling my pills a few days early.
 
i've managed to be a general opioid chipper for the past 7 years.

never had a withdrawl (opioid) in my life.

but then again, i've also been horribley addcited to cocaine/crack for the past five years......this may be what keeps me from an opioid addiction; but I feel more control with the later and thus only use at most five to six times a month.
 
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