chitownrawboy -
I think you were talking about the track that I posted back there - the video off youtube by gig brown, like "I know dude" or something like that...I posted it, not Shooter. It might be the worst rap track you've ever heard, I don't know. It's certainly not the best. I think it's funny though, and I think the guy has a sense of humor. It almost looks like he's laughing at himself during the video. Sorta like on SNL when they crack up during a skit, but keep going with it.
Anyway, just read the comments, and thought I'd answer. Why? IDK. I oughta be asleep. It's after 11p, and I've got the day off work tomorrow, but I fucked up and didn't realize that I had a shrink appt set up for 8am. I tried to reschedule, but my doc couldn't fit anything else it. And this is my sub doc, so I have to go see him.
It's funny about the sub. I've been on it for over a year now, maybe a year and a half approx. And I want to get off it, but I don't really have the discipline to taper the way you have to, when you get to the lower levels. I tried to go too fast once, and that was not fun, just like a version of WD from dope, but everyone says it lasts much longer. And I have used during the past year and a half, not gonna lie about it - so when I use, I obviously don't take the sub, what's the point in that, right?
So my guy had some good bags. I had some money, and like I said earlier, a lack of discipline. And I bought a jab, liked it, so I kept going. Right now, it's just over a week that I've been using the dope on a regular basis. Not too much, not going overboard, I don't want to get out of control, have bad shit happen, etc. I know we all say that when we relapse, or start chipping again. I've kept it at a 2 bag a day habit for the most part. And no sub at all.
So my point is, I'm gonna quit using the dope soon, it was nice, fun, I felt great at work, at home, slept well, basically all that good shit. And I'll get into whatever WD comes up when i stop - i'm a big boy, been there before, i know what too expect. I'll wait a day and see how it feels, then start back on the sub, but at the smallest dose possible to get some relief. Cause I think the dope is basically covering up the sub WD for the most part, and I want to avoid all that negative uncomfortable shit, as much as possible.
But if this works, I'll have had my fun, and be at a lower sub dose, and then hopefully I can keep tapering down, down, down...and get off this shit. maybe by the end of the year. Who knows?
It's nice that there are options out there...lol.
And Shooter. Glad to hear that about our friend. Whatever the story is. Glad he's still around and ok, i guess.
later, people.