Chicago Heroin v Hugs not Drugs

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Yep, my parents had no idea until I got arrested and they decided to attempt to educate themselves on what to look for. They like to think that have it all figured out and they're so far off.

My parents still didn't "know" that I was on drugs after I got arrested twice. They thought that I was just dealing, and I wasn't officially caught until they drug tested me and the results came back positive for heroin.

yea, when you're on something all the time people see sober you as different n then think you're high, used to happen to me all the time

but sometimes parents just dont wanna think about it if its bad, like that dontdodrugs commercial were they say yea my mom has been in denial for years yada yada yada, i can totally relate to that, i was always a pot smoker since like 14 as well n they werent kool with it but it caused enough arguements n i argued my case for smokin fairly well to the point where they only would say something when they caught me in the act, if the garage or bathroom smelled like weed or i was obviously high they never said anything n just let it ride but they knew, even with the heroin they knew something was up they just didnt know it was heroin, and even to this day my mom doesnt seem to want to allow herself to believe i was on heroin, whenever she talks about my drug use its "the pot" i was doin, i mean they put me on suboxone when i ran outta money doin Oxy n then when i was like a month or so clean from H i told em i had been usin H n they said they knew i was doing something, cuz i was either sick, really happy or just out of it, so its not like they dont fully know now but even to this day anytime its brought up no matter what drug just the general topic of my drug use is referred to as "when i was on the pot"

i guess for some denial is the easiest way to deal with something so difficult, not sayin its good or the right way to deal with it but from others stories too denial seems to be pretty common, i loved n hated that commercial all at the same time

I was going to mention that commercial when I saw the post that I quoted above by Effect. I think we all recently had the conversation about parents denial and whether or not they are in denial about our drug use, or if we are in denial about them knowing we are using.
 
why did you take a drud test,tommyboy did they guilt you into it?

I don't really remember why I agreed to take it, but I remember why I was given it. They caught me bagging up dope but they didn't know what it was based on appearance and packaging. They didn't know what drug came in the glassine stamp bags, and the dope I had was off-white to beige which doesn't look like any of the stereotypical dope in movies or on TV, so they tested me to find out what it was.

I told them from the get go that I would test positive for opiates and benzos. They knew I was prescribed benzos and I tried saying the positive opiate result would be from the suboxone I was taking, but they found out it wouldn't show up as an opiate, so had it sent to a lab for further analysis.
 
Should have said the opiates is from skin absorption unless you were wearing gloves lol. In drug court we had people drop dirty for h and c from bagging it.
 
What's good fellow Chi dopers?! I've taken quite a hiatus from BL but have been quite active on the streets unfortunately. From Christmas to late February I managed to almost entirely stay off dope and stick to my subs but then I got my tax return and went from dippin my toes here and there to diving right back in, and to keep with the water metaphor I'm treading frantically to keep from drowning. As soon as I get down to two sawbucks I go cop as I'm not even trying to get caught up with out and get sick. This may ramble so proceed with caution as I've been away here a while and I have opinions to express, especially the topic of family and using. Now clearly a lot of y'all are youngsters because I'm a grown man(30's) and I find no reason whatsoever to inform my loved ones I'm using again. Of course they knew when I was younger because of arrests, ODs, and three stints in rehab. As far as they know I'm clean and that's the way I want it. The only valid reason I can see telling them and advocate it is if you sincerely want and or need help to get clean. If not its plain fucking selfish and unfair to cause them so much worry and heartbreak if you have no desire to change. Sure you're "getting it of your chest" but if you're not going to change than use keep quiet and be prepared to face the potential negative consequences that come with our chosen life style. I knew so many whiny junkies who cry to their parents and beg for rehab/detox because they want attention and or couldn't sustain their habits and thus quit school and or jobs and act as if being a junkie is an excuse like being handicapped or something that prevents them from taking any responsibility for the repercussions of poor choices. Street Status: for those who cop on a notorious street in the WS in the section that people's grandmas probably know about it's so overrun with young whities trying to cop was particularly hot today. Now this place is always pretty much bacon central but today was beyond anything I've witnessed and so distraught I was I left without copping and my connect was mad because he allegedly came right after I bounced but after seeing the same squad cars roll by I thought it best to shake the spot. I went back once it started raining and right at dusk as it was darker, thus the illusion of the cover of darkness to feel safer and met up with him a few blocks south of ----------ave. He gave me a free one to make up for what a shady corner boy did the day before but I'll tell that story at a later time. As I was driving a way I saw another chi BL chick I know copping too!! What a small world . Would like to give a shout out to Cabrona, Chefman, Gweeen, And what the fuck even Chinks too. Peace Nodders.
 
what uo fourthstreet,how u been,was a little concerned for you but old girl told me you were fine,weel ttyl.
 
Hey LBC - new here, we never met, but seem to share some opinions. Anyway, if you was anywhere near where I was over the last week (not every day but i saw it every time i went out) cops were thick. And this was different days, different days of the week, in a 10 block radius.
Glad to be here, just gonna have to try again.
Later, all.
 
gwen--late reply but of course pole dancing for chinks, any time, any mothafuckin' place. even a cta bus stop pole? on the west side, of course. uhmm...maybe not anywhere. and perhaps chefman can provide omelettes (too lazy to look up proper spelling of 'omelettes') and party favors. just sayin'.
LBC--what's shakin' boo? blame the recent upsurge of bacon on the nice weather. you're better off just staying off that block for a minute and have someone try to meet you, even if just a couple blocks down at a restaurant or something. don't get popped bb

stay safe my fellow bluelighters! i'm due for a break soon on the D front.
"i love you so much it's killing us both..."
 
Yesterday when I went to cop from a phone connect, I drove through a couple different spots and it was all business as usual. Sucks for those of you that are seeing cops everywhere, I'm just not seeing that though. I didn't wanna spend as much money as I had on the block, so I decided against it and went to my best phone connect which was a real fuckin good move. Shit is fire.

Damn, I was nodding so hard all last night I couldn't even bring myself to post on here.

Oh well, fuck it.. round 2.. Sunday noddin' wheres my team at?
 
So I drove down for the first time in a few weeks and because I was with my buddy who is used to copping raw in his neighborhood, I took him to a connect I have that barely cuts the shit, but all it does is make me pass out. I don't understand it, like is this d just too good that I can't nod on it I just pass out? Granted his roa is iv and mine is intranasal
 
moonmaster - a little more info? what does your buddy think of the d? different opinion? how much are you & he doing? if you do less, do you get different results? how do you know your boy barely cuts it?
inquiring minds want to know. and that may shed more light on your question....
I mean, hard to say over the internets...
 
Is anyone elses goal with d to get the slightly energetic yet calming euphoria high and not the noddy high? honestly the nod freaks me out and i hate dope that gives me an instant nod and no real lifting euphoria. i like its anti anxiety effexts as stims nerve me out usually.
 
SS - I like the whole package. At this point, I'm just a sniffer. But the rush, from what I can get, to the euphoric high, to a nod (from slight to falling out to where suddenly i realize I'm somewhere doing shit and I don't know why) I like the whole thing. However, my life and situation are that I'm married with a family, and have a FT job. So I can't be nodded out, drooling on myself at my desk at work, and I can't fall out and crash into the open dishwasher when I'm cleaning up after dinner. Both examples of shit I've done. Past winter, I suddenly found myself outside shoveling snow at 10:30-11pm at night. i was in front of my house, and was being productive, but yeah, didn't really plan the whole thing. That freaked me out, in terms of maybe waking up the family and being obviously high in front of my wife.
I don't have a habit, but when I have D, I can't save it, I just use it almost 24/7 until I'm out.
So, when I'm using, I try to catch that rush and get a good high, and then repeat throughout the day. The whole time hoping that nobody notices anything different about me.
Which, typically, is a fail, for the most part. But I keep myself outta real trouble.
I use benzos regularly for what you're talking about - anxiolytic properties. Although D provides that as well, my tolerance increases much quicker, and the euphoria is so much more attractive that using D only for anxiety is also typically a fail, at least in my case.
Good luck to you.
 
If I do a small amount of dope, I get a HUGE increase in motivation/I'm content doing repetitive, menial things (clean the house, laundry, all that shit).. Its the same thing with large amounts of dope, but I'm just not as efficient when I'm falling asleep every 5-10 minutes only to wake up 3 minutes later.. Strange, huh?

So my friend got burned today by an old connect of ours (used him for a few years and had no problems.. even when spending $500+) over $40.. fucking retarded. My friend called, dude told him where to go, some guys came up exactly where my friend was knowing whats up, they did the exchange (there was a couple red flags because they did the exchange in a way we've never done with that connect before), and then when they left my friend opens it up and the bag was filled with OTC caps of something.. he calls up the connect and the dude says Oh that wasnt me man, musta been someone else.. yeahhh righttttt.

Sucks for my boy though. I dont have all the details on the story aside from what I just posted because when my friend called me to tell me the story (we had a 7 minute phone call) I was nodding the whole time so I dont remember shit.. But yeah, if I talk to him again and remember to post I'll give some more details..

So I started today with 12 blows, was nodding all day up until now.. and it turns out I still have 6 blows left.. time to nod AGAIN tomorrow. Fuck yeah.
 
Just killed my last 6 blows... feelin REAL nice.. nod startin' to set in. Also, got my transcripts and everything sent into a new college that I'll be attending to get my associates starting this summer. So instead of just noddin all day like I've done this whole weekend, I did some important things to better myself haha. Sometimes we tend to forget to do the productive stuff when we get in a habit of just nodding all day long.

I swear, sometimes if you get a bunch of productive shit done during your day before you get high/start nodding it makes the nod/relaxation effect just that much better. Anyone know what I'm talking about? I like to have everything perfectly cleaned/everything organized down to a T (close to being OCD if I'm high and cleaning up before I decided to take it from being high to nodding my face off). So yeah, does anyone either A.) Clean up everything and have everything in your home/apartment organized perfectly before getting high. Or do you clean/organize everything AFTER you've gotten high because you get the urge to have everything perfect while high.. I've heard about this from a couple people I know in person who like to have things clean/organized before they get high.

So yeah, finished the remaining blows I had from last night and I'm lovin' this nod. Where's the team??!?

Edit: Also just realized I double posted.. FUCK YEAH, period.
 
yeah i like to have everything done and perfect before i get high,especially any goals that need to be done.
 
I should really take up an attitude more like you guys... A lot of the time if I have something to do, all I can think of is how much better/more fun it would be high. And then my productivity is essentially killed haha
 
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