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Opioids Chicago dope thread

100% sick of it...have been since I fucking started... It's so so so tiring...yet.. I cannot seem to change.

reach bottom when I stop digging I suppose
 
First time checking out this thread... grateful to hear that so far, none of my fellow BL'rs got any of that bad dope in Chicago... I had some sick thoughts about wishing I had some, but knowin it has fent I would take it easy...just thinking.
 
Dmopzz said:
100% sick of it...have been since I fucking started... It's so so so tiring...yet.. I cannot seem to change.

reach bottom when I stop digging I suppose
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chefman said:
Yep,taking a break,I don't need to be exercising my life ins.Be safe
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man, real talk, not downing anyone because god knows i have been where most of you are but you really dont have to live like that. its extremely difficult to get and stay off but there is a way all it takes is hard work.

if ANY of you ever need to talk or anything reach out to me.
 
So Fucking sick of the game. The players. PLAYING the game. Losing over and over. Today I hopped back on suboxone but have half asses plans to pick up later...sub for money, going to Rockford. Fuck, man...hate hate hate. Yes i can CHOOSE not to use but its tough when the option is laid out in front of you. The anxiety that you experience the day ...day 1-like day 14 is horrendous. Only something mind altering helps. What I really need is weed. But if I get money I can't really spend it Cuz i owe 105$ on fronts. Shitty!

Ugh! Still alive, though. Been speedballin'. Or shooting both separately. Feels so GOOD but so lethal. What.a.rush.

Help me, God!
 
MemphisX3 said:
man, real talk, not downing anyone because god knows i have been where most of you are but you really dont have to live like that. its extremely difficult to get and stay off but there is a way all it takes is hard work.

if ANY of you ever need to talk or anything reach out to me.
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thanks man..I appreciate it.
 
Aren't you the holier than thou pos that popped in here before and made a proclamation of "I need a shower"?
Uh, thanks but I will take my help and advice from someone that's not assuming the hypocritical stance of "having to take a shower" after your pseudo "helping a brother out session". Be honest.
Thanks for the advice Chiraq.
I appreciate it. Hope you're transitioning/settling in fine and it sounds like you are and I'm glad.
Talk to you REAL folks later.
Hey WOA.
Hey JJ.
JJ, I think you and Chiraq are the only people that don't reffer to their parents in the context of personal development .
Fuck it. The struggle is real and it is ongoing. It's been a little over two months and I will let you guys know that (for me anyway) it is getting a little easier to go about my business without being consumed with dope fantasies. Now if I could only tackle this sub gorilla, I would feel like I'm actually accomplishing something instead of substituting.
Lol! Be good folks
Oh, sorry. Hey Chef. The holidays are a comin and that's the season of all the goodies! Time to get down!!!
Unfortunately, the sub is doing magical vanishing tricks with my appetite.
Oh well... Be good, man. Talk to you.
 
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@chef. Sorry man, you must have posted as I was editing my post in relation to you. (This thing keeps booting me off[I know JJ copy and paste lol])
Yup I's hangin on, man. Thanks.
Hope your break is a stickin.
Later.
 
Itchy ... You are right and wrong.. Meaning you are right that the subs are somewhat a "replacement" and you are wrong in thinking you are not accomishing anything... TWO MONTHS! Dude bro bro that's fucking huge.. Just remember, subs like dope, are very fucking strong, and it's a mind fuck because for us with the ol' habit habit subs don't do shit to us (compared to dope) but to truly get this monkey off our back (at least off your mind) your gunna have to hurt a little... If you can taper down with the subs once you get to the tail end I wouldn't expect more than 3 or 4 days of fatigue, runny nose, runs and maybe some sleep issues... Also I know you're a busy dude but try your best to get to the gym, the physical activity was honestly the game changer for me...

But shit my maneframe.. Don't sell your self short! Your crushing it!!! Just don't let this bitch creep into your mind when you start to get off the subs. Life is so much better without this whore ass mark ass trick bitch we call dope.. I struggle everyday with the thoughts but hearing your story reminds me to stay the right path. Always here for ya brahj!!
Stay safe everyone
 
Eh fake or not still a nice gesture. Who is 'real' anyway? I know very few people that are as advertised 100% of the tIme. Shit I'm a dope fiend, I'll be as real or as fake as I have to in order to accomplish my own agenda...I often wonder if it's the dope that makes me into an absolute shit of a human being or if I really was that way before and the dope gave me the excuse to be a pos? Makes one ponder? How honest can one be?
 
Yup. Awesome advice regarding the gym. And I should be taking it, considering I have the gym membership fees taken out of my account for the last year and a half and I'm making every excuse not to go. My girl is tied into my account also and can't get in unless I go. She can use the gym a little...shhh... Lol!
Yeah, I know what you mean about "a little pain" but what makes this transition more difficult than the last is that to get off of dope, I used sub, to get off of the sub you don't have shit but will power and endurance.
...Fucking sub...
I think my first objective is to reduce my alcohol intake to avoid hangovers, (because hangovers compounded with a sub withdrawal are brutal.)
Dude, one way or another, I'm gonna have to jump off of that shit because my subs are going to run out. That's why I'm going to have try your method because I would rather do it on my own terms instead of out necessity.
Anyway, thanks for the advice, bro, always appreciated.
Shit, what else... Nothing. Work, two ice cubes and three fingers of single malt .
Enjoying the last of the nice weather.
Be good man. Glad to hear things are going good. From what I hear, it only gets better.
Talk to ya later.
 
@Dmopzz well... Thus far I have been pretty genuine on this thread and in person with the people I have met on this thread. You are posing a question of whether you were a pos prior to doing dope? I don't know. I know from my own experience I have done a lot of degenerate shit while I was actively using and to be honest, I've been using for so long(something or other ) that I don't really know who I was prior to that. I hate generalize, cause that's disingenuous but in my opinion, we have to have (maybe not a character flaw) a certain precursor to ever start feeling like we have to disconnect on regular basis. I'm strictly speaking for myself when I say that my precursor was a lot of child abuse, different homes(nah houses) different mothers, different friends.
Which in turn gave me a huge unworthy complex and a horrible case of low self esteem. So that precluded me to hang out with derelicts and degenerates because that's all I felt worthy of.
...And here I am.
I don't think children are born pieces of shit and neither should you as well as wondering if you were before you started getting high. We have enough people throwing their narratives at us.
In short, getting high is a cancer of self that makes you feel like a piece of shit, because indeed you're by your own admission you're doing shitty things. But I don't believe your nature is shitty.
Later.
 
have any of you used kratom to try and maintain off dope? I think you guys should give it a try, it can help fill in the gaps when you are fiending and does not make you crazy high so you are still a normal person. I hope you guys all can find health and happiness.
 
I'm glad I never found a sexy junkie chic chick to get into this with. Well I sorta got into opiates with a gal who liked me lots but I was only into her once she fed me Lortabs, oxycodone, and oxycontin from the buckets she was prescribed for a rare painful condition. I fantasize about it once in a while but I'm certain trying to keep up with a hot little fiend would be my undoing. Anyone want to share stories about this? I briefly knew a guy who had such a chick, watched him lose his job, then condo, and so on.
 
nintey said:
have any of you used kratom to try and maintain off dope? I think you guys should give it a try, it can help fill in the gaps when you are fiending and does not make you crazy high so you are still a normal person. I hope you guys all can find health and happiness.
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This! Woamotive, if you cycle kratom in some days, sub, and dope you could stretch the time between any one. Bear in mind you can withdrawal from kratom as well. Not the best thing to do but if you only do one of the 3 on a given day you're giving yourself a couple days break. Granted sub and kratom aren't fun but you can supplement with other things.
 
Also, kratom is great for PAWS. It's cheaper to have some tea or capsules to get rid of the restless legs instead of using some precious sub.
 
I don't know. Kratom maybe would help but its so Damn WEAK, am i right? Also, its illegal here in WI. id have to buy it online and I have no bank account. Could i open an account? I owe UW Credit Union 5-...600$ from swiping 'credit' to fund my alcoholism a couple years ago. I guess I might be able to open a new one...but Id have to stop spending my paychecks right away so I could put $ in the bank...quite the predicament. I only have 3 4mg strips left...I'm near fucked. Picking up btwn a half g and a g today in Rockford in about an hour (be there around 130). Can't wait...

I'm about to lose my job. Its all i have left....so I'm feeling sorry for myself. ;)
 
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