lol... I didn't know you were a moderator now. And it doesn't really matter if anyone replies or not. The stuff I post does not require replies. I get enough from you guys already. My posts are the most entertaining, anyways. I should put my username post count chronology into graph format. It makes it way easier to see the trends in the data. Maybe someone here can put it in a report, or use it at a meeting.
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Opioids Chicago dope thread
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lol... I didn't know you were a moderator now. And it doesn't really matter if anyone replies or not. The stuff I post does not require replies. I get enough from you guys already. My posts are the most entertaining, anyways. I should put my username post count chronology into graph format. It makes it way easier to see the trends in the data. Maybe someone here can put it in a report, or use it at a meeting. 
MadeInChicago
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Im sure its not a good thing, but we don't always chose our predicaments. Taking out a shorty bekuz u don't wanna quit may be a greater evil.
I've already told you what I do for work. I'm an operating engineer (fancy way of saying heavy equipment operator). Mostly cranes but I can run pretty much anything from skid steers to backhoes, dozers, and all that fun stuff. I was getting flow from DC, spitfire, and Shortys hardware and black magic grip tape. And was skating AM for alien workshop, krux, Ezekiel, and eventually switched from DC to share AM for Osiris. My original sponsor though was a small skate shop in Cicero called First Gear.
Also, in a way, I'm glad I didn't go to college cuz I probably would've fucked it up and spent tons of money for nothing. I never really was a good student. I always did good on tests but just never did homework and shit. But I love what I do now. Its like getting paid to play video games. And I'm good at it.smh.....i dont know why u guys fed the troll....smh.....anyways, yea one thing i like to is to encourage each other to stay on point...that even tho we have an addiction to keep working hard, keep trying to achieve...for example i work 2 jobs....corp finance and i bartend and im trying to get my own startup going....(now according to some ppl on here its not possible to use opiates and be any kind of contributing member of society or know ANYTHING of substance outside drug use)......in reality there just projecting their own life and reality becuz they are pathetic BeYONd belief and capable of anything, besides playing internet detective of course....hahahaha.
Shit, I know a lot of guys in the construction trades that lead semi-normal/productive lives while having some kind of addiction. It's actually the alcoholics in my line of work that end up fucking up and are the last productive. The coke heads and opiate abusers always show up and do their job and do it will. The alcoholics eventually start showing up late, can't stay focused, sleep during break and lunch, and start fucking up and making mistakes. Even the pot heads do a good job. I'd way rather hire a junky over an alcoholic. If that were a choice i had to make for some weird reason, lol.Settle down homies. We are all one. I haven't uses heroin for ALMOST a month. One month on Saturday.
I want some crack. Ugh.gimme gimme gimme gimme.
Im fucked up lyrica. I even puked. Took 8 225 mg capsules. Puked 5 times.
My girlfriend and I are constantly arguing. I dont know what to do. She argues w me all the time, puts words in my mouth. I hate it. She does not understand where I'm coming from, and blames everything on me and constantly waits for me to say I'm sorry. If I say I apologize she it doesn't count that which is ridiculous she is twisting words meaning certain words words words words fuck that.
whoa woosa! u know ur not allowed to speak on anything besides dope life! how dare you try refinance a home and get a lower rate. ALL ur money is ONLY allowed to go to the dopeman. ur not allowed to use ur money for anything dummy! hahahahah.....yea, but back to seriousness yea man especially pol that are more seasoned and have already been down that road of pretty much fuckin everything up tend to have learn there lesson....like me, i never been arrested or rehab or anything and i know how to balance both worlds much better now.
I've been to both, rehab and jail. I've even been to rehab in jail, if you can even call that rehab. The cook county drug program is a joke. More than half the people in there are fighting gun cases and say there drug of choice is weed. But they only request the drug program to make it look better in front of their judge. So all the group discussions ended up being about gang life and parenting. It was interesting to see though how where people are from played a part in what they were locked up for. Like dudes from the south side mostly had gun cases such as unlawful discharge, aggravated discharge, unlawful use, and even armed robbery. And dudes from the west side were mostly fighting drug cases like manufacture/delivery, simple possession, and stuff like that. But anyways, I'm getting off topic, I know rehab works for some people, but it's just not for me. I have something like social anxiety, I don't like speaking in front of groups of people. When I'm on dope, I'm fine. But when I'm clean, it's horrible. I get such bad anxiety and is totally uncontrollable. I start sweating, my heart races, my face turns bright red, I stumble over my words, and in rehab you have to talk in groups like that and it's like torture to me. My counselor in the county program would get mad that I don't share in the groups and put me on the spot which was even worse and I had told her a few times how it gave me anxiety but she didn't care. No compassion for how terrible it made me feel. And everybody would be laughing and saying how bright red my face would get and even she would start calling me red. It was the longest and worst 120 days of my life.MadeInChicago
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Awesome man, dont drop the ball. What is it, financial, job performance, ? why might u be on the edgeAlcohol and work don't mix well... youre damn right. I lost my best job ever because I was a raging alcoholic. I hated drinking but couldnt stop. I skipped projects, had many ambulance rides. I was actually banned from all liquor stores and bars for 6 months.... then it was renewed for 6 more. No barsor liquor stores in the city of Janesville. Sucked. There is this new'ish statute that if you continuously have to be hauled out in a stretcher on a regular basis and waste county/city resources as well as police and 911 related stuff because of alcohol overdoses and other like things... then you get your name on the list. I was one of the first ppl on the list.
Sucked. I had to ask random ppl to go buy me some vodka (w my $)).
I dont drink like I used to. Now I drink maybe a handful of times a month.
Getting crack now waiting for my dude. Taking forever. ..gonna call him EVEN THOUGH it will piss him off.MadeInChicago
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Lmao they renewed it. I guess u can't blame em on the resources part lol. I use to drink heavy too (me and my man's splitting fifths of good vodka).
I mean when u say u couldn't stop I'm guessing u were psychologically addicted were u felt like u had to drink.
Did u ever like just straight white girl(coke)? Jw, I tried coke & verified good coke, and it didn't do anything for me. I heard certain ppl it doesnt, but I've also heard of ppl who it was the same for but crack was like a different route drug.MadeInChicago
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I am waiting on someone including woamotive to hip us out a bit. I wonder how the buzz is bekuz before doing diesel I couldnt fathom how it would feel. Some highs are completely different, is it more like a amphetamine high or is it in a league of its own since I heard it causes feelings of well being, ego, and euphoria. I know exactly the feeling of well-being from opiates.
Explaining the come up feeling when ur testing some out is very hard to put into words outside of feeling good. I like feel it in my forehead/center of brain which actually is where the pleasure chemicals are taking place.My drink of choice was straight vodka straight outta the bottle. Half gallon a day. Permanent black out.
I shoot crack and coke (and h) & while they felt very similar, the powder was stronger. Perhaps it was great quality coke . I know it was. My dude has bomb hard. Yes crack is dirty.. oh well. Meth is worse in my book.
Bedtime!!
Good lord...I can handle my fair share of hey Ron, esp when I was using at my peak...tolerance hasn't dropped much as I currently go to the 'done clinic...but good god wo...a half gallon of vodka?! I am a light weight when it comes to alcohol..never really did it for me. It always surprises me when I hear of hardcore drinking like that...makes me just cringe haha
I'm not a drinker either. I can honestly say I haven't been "drunk" in over 2 years. It could be 3 years but I'm not exactly sure, but I can say over 2 years for sure. Last time I had a beer or any alcoholic drink was this past November, I had a 1 beer at my sisters house one night and when I was helping her move a couple weeks later I had 1 pomegranate mimosa. I just don't like being drunk and I always got horrible hangovers.
yea thats how i feel....like have u ever seen a "functional crack addict?"......like thats the one drug including meth that i feel SHOWS on you immediately!!! like theres no hiding it.....and it makes u so crzy, i just couldnt do it....not talkin shit, but just not for me.....nwver tried, never will.
yea i know ppl like that especially when they use opiates they have no desire to drink....Hell, i barely drink and im a bartender part time!!! hell being around a bunch of drunk ppl sober will make u not want to drink when u see how silly they act..
