chemically dependant

[sdsmith0889]

so i started experimenting with different substances when i was about 14. just the occasional whatever i could get my hands on. after graduating i joined the military to try and do something with my life. then i got into a pretty severe car accident and suffered a closed head injury, memory loss and most importantly i jacked up my back and neck. well the docs had no problem giving me norcos and vicodin like they were pez which eventually led to me being addicted to pain killers. also my car wreck was a suicide attempt which put me in the mental health system where they pumped me full of anti depressants and benzos.... now i followed the doctors orders and it has been 3 yrs that i have been on a myriad of different psychotropics, pain killers and benzos and i find my self unable to go without my meds. last time i tried i went 3 days with no meds and ended up in jail for becoming violent at a local store. i seriously think that my body can no longer stand to be sober because every time i am i feel like shit and get pissed off and usually get into some type of trouble.... what have these medical professionals done to me? anyone else feel the same way?

 

[maxalfie]

I think a lot of doctors don't think of the consequences when giving out these pills to people for a long period of time.
They should be more aware than anyone of the addiction risks.
Can't you get a suitable taper organised for you?

 

[cj]

I take it you are still under doctors care? Are you in chronic pain from your accident? Why do you wanna get off the medication? You can answer on here or just think about it yourself but those are some important questions IMO. Anyway you are not alone alot of people get in the situation the same way you do. Take care!

 

[sdsmith0889]

i do have chronic pain from the accident and i started with vicodin to manage the pain until i got addicted so i opted for a medical marijauana license since i live in michigan in conjunction with neurontin. the reason why i want to quit my psych meds is because they make me feel like a zombie. i have little to no emotion most of the time and the drowsiness and other side effects are undesirable but my doc says to let my body adjust which my new pill regimine seems better but i think its far from as good as it could be. what makes it difficult for the doctors is that i have dual diagnosises so i try to listen to them but when is enough enough you know? i just sometimes go cold turkey and thats when bad things happen. i think a tapering program would be a good idea if i thought i could go without meds and function like a normal person but im just not sure that can happen

 

[Legerity]

You are still a normal person. If you feel that they are doing more harm than good then it's your choice to taper down or cut them out. If there are particular reasons why you are drawn to these meds aside from pain then it may be helpful to look at these if you are going to stop.

 

[itsok]

how long did it take for u to get addicted?
i have found such good results w nmda antagonists like methoxetamine and 4meopcp to get rid of a high opiate physical addiction. the kicker is the psychological part, why do i crave it and go back, even occassionally?