Well its been awhile since I have written here. A lot of things in my life have changed in the last 4 months. I decided not to return to the university I was attending. Instead I stayed in my hometown and I am attending community college. I have 9 more hours before I receive my 2 year general studies degree. I should have that done by December when I will try and transfer to the 4 year school in my hometown. I am still single which kinda sucks because I feel really lonely. I know I am not ugly but I just don't have a lot of self confidence. Plus I am living with my parents right now so its tough to bring girls here and stuff. On the upside I should have an apartment in the next couple weeks and I got a job making sandwiches 20 hours a week. I like the job as its really chill and my good friend works with me.
I keep thinking that I should be feeling pretty good about my life right now. But instead I am still fighting this feeling of melancholy. In fact I realize I will probably be fighting it forever. That really sucks because if I am destined to be miserable my whole life than there is really no point in living. Well if I am honest it weren't for drugs I would be dead already.
I have been pretty successful staying away form the heroin. I have only used a couple times in the last 4 months. I think my addiction to it is pretty much done. Even when I do it I don't jones like I used too. In fact getting back on suboxone after a run is a relief. I just wonder if I would feel the same way without the suboxone? I really doubt I would.
Well I am going to try and write more often now that I hae a computer again. Thanks for reading. PLUR
I keep thinking that I should be feeling pretty good about my life right now. But instead I am still fighting this feeling of melancholy. In fact I realize I will probably be fighting it forever. That really sucks because if I am destined to be miserable my whole life than there is really no point in living. Well if I am honest it weren't for drugs I would be dead already.
I have been pretty successful staying away form the heroin. I have only used a couple times in the last 4 months. I think my addiction to it is pretty much done. Even when I do it I don't jones like I used too. In fact getting back on suboxone after a run is a relief. I just wonder if I would feel the same way without the suboxone? I really doubt I would.
Well I am going to try and write more often now that I hae a computer again. Thanks for reading. PLUR