CH what do you think about this? Would you fuck a man without arms or legs?
OH MAN it's STORY TIME WITH CAPTAIN HEROINE [everyone's favorite not yet overdosed neighborhood junkie] - I once realized I was on the edge about to fall into the abyss because I was about to get drunk and shoot ketamine and black out in public (VERY CLASSY, I KNOW!) and I looked around and I was
alone. The only other people were not my demographic and I remember thinking, anyone else more junkie and not dead yet = agoraphobic loser probably tweaking on meth. I have broken free of everything that I once ever loved and now seek out death (dissociation, disconnection, sedation) in a spiritual way. And anyone I've ever known or in my community that was
more like this, more willing to explore death, and was more outgoing, would have already overdosed and died.
I also realized this comparing myself to a group of users of aforementioned drug and I was the one who would go the hardest on it (via injection) and didn't get a lot out of occasional bumps as the other cats would.
I am on the edge of the abyss, my toes being sucked into the asphalt grave, the black hole singularity that will swallow us all up alive... this is the border between life and death... and I chose death... do not pity me as this is what I long for, I give up...
you got me thinking about sexier times, thank you man
so one time, CAPATAIN.HEROINE [yes that was a prelude to the story]... ONE TIME in the great extant reality I love to escape so much, I was in public where people like to show off their naked bodies and what not and there was an amputee (one leg below or above knee iirc, I was REAL fucked up on mdma, ketamine, and/or mushrooms, I tended to trip a lot to deal with my suicidal ideation/grief at this point in my life)
and he is using crutches obviously [because probably not yet fitted or could afford his prosthetic i believe?] needed to get through so i hold the door, everyone is my brother/sister in these deep nirvana blissful psychedelic states.
He wasn't unattractive and I wouldn't have been adversed to it
in that state, though I normally would @DeadManWalkin' and I Want to tell you and everyone else why
Normally when I see an amputee sober, or a car crash (even if i'm not in any of the cars) or a falling avatar in a video game or are falling in real life... the mirror touch synesthesia effect overtakes me and I begin to lose focus in a sober state and it is unsettling.
For some reason on ketamine you are excelling at this type of sensation but also it doesn't disturb you so I didn't "feel" any physical sensation upon seeing his body as I otherwise would (in a sober state it triggers horror/empathy - I know what severe pain from a physical injury is like, etc...) he was by himself and quite frankly I would have buddied up with him (the rest of him looked decent IMO, I don't remember seeing his wang - I was really fucked up and if I'm that fucked up I'm not checking dicks out unless they're too big not to notice which is rare)
So in conclusion, yes, yes I would. But More than one amputation might be... too much for me. I'm not sure. This guy was hot though. Decent body. There's a lot you could do with a guy like that for fun. *shrugs*
But does it appeal to me - no especially if I'm sober I get the mirror touch synesthesia aversion sensations.