Chapter II: The Abyss is Eternal !

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Captain.Heroin said:
still recovering... is going to be a long road ahead of me. Am somewhat afraid because it's already Wednesday and it seems my body is not healing well [mega sigh]

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I'll just stare at pics like this to help the time go by :cry:
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Let me give you a biiig virtual hug! It helps! :) 💗
 
Mysterier said:
Great, thanks, now I want a bountiful amount of donuts. Ding-dong hula hoop iirc.
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Looking at the pic, I wanted a bountiful amount of warm hot dogs in my orifices

Wanting the donuts is probably more socially acceptable

I MADE A MEAL and I was SO HUNGRY

then I cleaned my injured and decaying diseased disgusting body and now I've lost my appetite

I guess I can always reheat it when I'm ready sigh - I just need to get high and stay high how is it like SO HARD, man, so unfair

I can't drink because I have to stay #woke
 
JoEhJoEh said:
Let me give you a biiig virtual hug! It helps! :) 💗
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Thank you 💕

No one would be happy w/ my body right now so it's not just my perception or whatever.

I try to tell myself IT IS OK YOU ARE HEALING YOU ARE IN RECOVERY and it doesn't help my thought pattern much.
the benzos REALLY HELP and I am total fucked without them, need a new doctor
 
Captain.Heroin said:
Looking at the pic, I wanted a bountiful amount of warm hot dogs in my orifices
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You sound like you suck a lot of dick. 😀

With your asshole.

Captain.Heroin said:
Wanting the donuts is probably more socially acceptable

I MADE A MEAL and I was SO HUNGRY

then I cleaned my injured and decaying diseased disgusting body and now I've lost my appetite

I guess I can always reheat it when I'm ready sigh - I just need to get high and stay high how is it like SO HARD, man, so unfair

I can't drink because I have to stay #woke
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Haha, my sweet tooth agrees with you.

Otherwise, take care of yourself, man. I want you to outlive me, please.

And I'm a fat guy on the weekends.
 
Mysterier said:
You sound like you suck a lot of dick. 😀

With your asshole.



Haha, my sweet tooth agrees with you.

Otherwise, take care of yourself, man. I want you to outlive me, please.

And I'm a fat guy on the weekends.
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tbph i mostly just do the fucking but i make a lot of dick sucking jokes and what not, they are quite rich

if i crack it at the right time i get my love interest to look surprised like I know what's on his mind and he laughs his ass off

the super aids and china virus and BBC cancer is going to kill me though

I'll do the chemo though, I already had a Walter White "I'M READY TO LEAVE THIS WORLD!!!1" conversation w/ my fam and they were like "bitch u think u have a choice??/"

I woke up after the chloroform and the chemo IV bag was half empty

so I was like, eh, fuck it, can't stop the cure

ok i am not being serious but the bbc cancer is real and i am dying, when i go to the er, no i don't have any contact in case of emergency just dump my body in the covid corpse pile idc... and have not told my family [why the fuck would i worry them about this]

and my love interest goes "oh u could have told me for moral support" ya rite like I want ur pity party

w01f and ghost and the loungers like u guise are my real fam anyways

and i still can't be honest but let's just call it BBC cancer
 
Captain.Heroin said:
Thank you 💕

No one would be happy w/ my body right now so it's not just my perception or whatever.

I try to tell myself IT IS OK YOU ARE HEALING YOU ARE IN RECOVERY and it doesn't help my thought pattern much.
the benzos REALLY HELP and I am total fucked without them, need a new doctor
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If that's you on this pic, I wouldn't say it is ugly or awful - you have done quite a bit for these results an you should be proud of yourself!!! Wow!

JJ

P.S. Yes, if you really want to get rid of the benzos (like i want that, too), you need a doctor that takes you seriously with all the problems you have. I know how hard that is sometimes and I know I am lucky to have a really good Psych and a genius of a Psychotherapist. I hope for you you find somebody that fits for you and it should be somebody you can be totally free to talk, without any judging from his side. 🌻

You can do that!!!

JJ
 
JoEhJoEh said:
If that's you on this pic, I wouldn't say it is ugly or awful - you have done quite a bit for these results an you should be proud of yourself!!! Wow!

JJ

P.S. Yes, if you really want to get rid of the benzos (like i want that, too), you need a doctor that takes you seriously with all the problems you have. I know how hard that is sometimes and I know I am lucky to have a really good Psych and a genius of a Psychotherapist. I hope for you you find somebody that fits for you and it should be somebody you can be totally free to talk, without any judging from his side. 🌻

You can do that!!!

JJ
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neither of the men in my avatar are me

but i appreciate it and i can pretend like i am

btw the guy on the left has mad body dysmorphia i am sure and i'm like "how can you be unhappy w/ your body"

i'm sure others would think that of me too

I want to be normal without benzos but trust me, it's bad, I get erratic, agoraphobic, manic, weird, asocial, panic/nightmares constantly, and almost anyone who actually cares about me has suggested I go back on the benzos.
 
Captain.Heroin said:
tbph i mostly just do the fucking but i make a lot of dick sucking jokes and what not, they are quite rich

if i crack it at the right time i get my love interest to look surprised like I know what's on his mind and he laughs his ass off

the super aids and china virus and BBC cancer is going to kill me though

I'll do the chemo though, I already had a Walter White "I'M READY TO LEAVE THIS WORLD!!!1" conversation w/ my fam and they were like "bitch u think u have a choice??/"

I woke up after the chloroform and the chemo IV bag was half empty

so I was like, eh, fuck it, can't stop the cure

ok i am not being serious but the bbc cancer is real and i am dying, when i go to the er, no i don't have any contact in case of emergency just dump my body in the covid corpse pile idc... and have not told my family [why the fuck would i worry them about this]

and my love interest goes "oh u could have told me for moral support" ya rite like I want ur pity party

w01f and ghost and the loungers like u guise are my real fam anyways

and i still can't be honest but let's just call it BBC cancer
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You never have to tell things that you want nobody to know. It's okay.

JJ
 
The Wizard of the Creek said:
“Ahhh... I remember the good old days, when you buy a fresh Hustler: Barely 18. You get that puppy home and crack it open and smell the intoxicating photo ink. Then you commence to violently masturbate and shoot your first load on that filthy whore in the center of the center fold part of the magazine.”

Your welcome! Seven years of college with a useless creative writing degree from Miami University.

—Wizard
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you got a creative writing degree? how was that?

I love writing.

I do like the very vivid and tangible image of your above paragraph.... I can almost smell the mag ink :D
 
The Wizard of the Creek said:
Yeah, I got BA in English, creative writing. Well worth the $150,000 dollar price tag.

We had an exercise in one of the classes, where you write the filthiest shit you could imagine. Then you pass it off to the person next to you and the exercise was called Make It Filthier. It was fucking hilarious!

—Wizard
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.... oh my! That's hot.

how are you doing today wizard?
 
The Wizard of the Creek said:
I’m doing well considering I have a broken foot and have to sit on the couch all day and watch 24 hour news channels. You literally get only 7 minutes of news per day, and the rest of day pundits argue with each other. It is fascinating, and is pure entertainment for me.

How u be captn H?
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i have to sit on the couch all day too

it's not my foot that's broken but yeah something is broke as fuck right now

i get about 7 minutes of joy a day and the rest is downhill from there (the first seven minutes of non-REM sleep before the nightmares)

I guess the good news is my body seems to be healing... it's uncomfortable, disgraceful and abysmally depressing but it's improving... and eventually i will be OK again and not feel so broken

[details may be lacking due to my embarrassment]
 
The Wizard of the Creek said:
Is it strange that I might be sexually attracted to Wolf Blitzer? “Come here Volfie... come back to bed my little Volf”.
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He has a very nice authoritative voice... The rest of him like.. I can't picture myself but if I heard that voice in a dark room I'd be intrigued to see where it was coming from
 
The Wizard of the Creek said:
Is it strange that I might be sexually attracted to Wolf Blitzer? “Come here Volfie... come back to bed my little Volf”.
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WARG was an ancient wolf species, bigger than ours. Varg or warg, however you feel comfortable with. Same shit, I think you know what you're doing but you wait at red light, leave it. Wait until father comes home, doesn't matter who's the father. The smoke fails to give you birth
 
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