Chapter II: The Abyss is Eternal !

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Captain.Heroin said:
i don't even know what i'd "feel", shot too many drugs

i mostly dream about shooting meth

but it's pretty gross and irl

i would rather shoot benzos, a nice full rig of triazolam

if you haven't iv'd triazolam you haven't benzo'd really it's like the best [but don't do it]
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nvr ived benzos cept for valium before surgery. felt good tho
 
ghostandthedarknes said:
nvr ived benzos cept for valium before surgery. felt good tho
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ghost, the stasi are haunting me and my nation is failing me - but that aside, I have done IV midazolam which is like, nothing, nothing in comparison to the FAT dosages of IV midazolam they give you before surgery with IV fentanyl

oh my god

it was like the perfect death, the perfect sleep, I would push that shit all day long if I could, or maybe just the midazolam

the fentanyl makes you puke pretty bad coming off that mega dose for surgery

I imagine iv diazepam is the same when they mega dose you maybe you get to enjoy the onset more and it's a slower onset = longer enjoyment before black out

midazolam was like < 10 seconds black out for me
 
oh but like, iv midazolam, as awesome as it is

is like, almost nothing compared to iv triazolam. I haven't even dosed high with it but was so heavenly. I was like, you and me vial, are gonna be friends for a week or so with this box of needles here, see... and before you know it, it was 2020 and I have zero memory of Jan 1, 2020 or the day before. No memory. Nor much of the week prior.
 
It unfortunately is like that. Plus a major depression which i never experienced, not even a small one... Im totally out of everything, sleeping 18 hour a day, take RC- and pharmabenzos or Cocaine.

i was mobbed out of my former group practice because she denied that ADHD exists and always told me - Thats and excuse - you could but you wouldn't - you are dumb - you are a piece of shit . " ,

I tried everything to explain that some things are definitely not easy for me - talked to her, gave her books, printed her out the important things -she just smiled in front of me and tear these sheet of paper before she threw them down to my feet. It was the first time I cried in the practice since 7,5 years.

But fuck it ....

have to live with it. But I do not earn money because people pay me cash.

A big desaster, and im sitting or lying around, sleeping about 16 to 18 hours a day....

i cannot bear all these things anymore.



But it just could get better than worse.

JJ
 
JoEhJoEh said:
It unfortunately is like that. Plus a major depression which i never experienced, not even a small one... Im totally out of everything, sleeping 18 hour a day, take RC- and pharmabenzos or Cocaine.

i was mobbed out of my former group practice because she denied that ADHD exists and always told me - Thats and excuse - you could but you wouldn't - you are dumb - you are a piece of shit . " ,

I tried everything to explain that some things are definitely not easy for me - talked to her, gave her books, printed her out the important things -she just smiled in front of me and tear these sheet of paper before she threw them down to my feet. It was the first time I cried in the practice since 7,5 years.

But fuck it ....

have to live with it. But I do not earn money because people pay me cash.

A big desaster, and im sitting or lying around, sleeping about 16 to 18 hours a day....

i cannot bear all these things anymore.



But it just could get better than worse.

JJ
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i hope you feel better soon <3
 
The Wizard of the Creek said:
That is not unusual these days (unfortunately) Please stick with winners this time. Fuck I don’t know anymore?

—Wizard
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Thats not possible without earning money. Like I said - im selfemployed and i just get money when people pay me cash like usual. 3 months no income. Thanks, Mr. BigEared Kurz.

I hope I'll get a psychosomatical rehab.

JJ
 
The Wizard of the Creek said:
Who’s wafflesock? I’m interested now.

—Wizard
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cool guy from uk, black guy with a bbc

who was ex military

and would talk about guns, and his depression

he would talk about his penis like a big dangly useless object it was pretty hot

i forget his exact words

some of his posts were pretty extreme even for my WORDS level poetry type stuff

i often wonder what happened to him
 
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