Changes

[NeWBoRN]

The last time I was here I was at the lowest of lows.
My views were twisted, my mind was closed.
Now i'm still just as fucked up with a smile on my face, searching through rooms im a stranger to this place.
Changes..
When you try to stay focussed on your values, but the world has a different plan for you, its hard to be true to yourself.
To tell yourself you are different and spend the rest of your life trying to be the same as everyone else is common.
To tell yourself you are the same as everyone else and spend the rest of your life trying to be different is kidding yourself.
Changes..
At 16 the world was mine.. At 19 it feels like im running out of time.
Changes..
The last time I was here I hated my words. I loved your words. I hated myself. I loved you.
Changes..
Did you ever think I would be here.. did you think I had the strength to pack up and leave. I didn't. But now I think its the only thing I had left. To leave you behind was hard. Remembering you with a smile on my face is harder.
Changes..
Change is opening up. Change is a new day. Change can make you realise your true potential. Change can give you hope.
Changes..
But if I was to be totally honest...
I never changed.
I would have you back in a second.
xx

 

[E-girl]

To leave you behind was hard. Remembering you with a smile on my face is harder.
if someone or something is no longer in your life, it means there was something bad enough to make you not want it there anymore. instead of looking back and seeing what hurt you in the first place, find your best memory of that person, and keep it as close to your heart as you can. looking back with a smile needn't be so hard.
but i feel ya... here's to all the forced smiles.. *raises glass*