Change in perspective

I couldn't decide what to write about here- My view of myself, my life, others and just everything in general has changed so much over the last two years.
I feel like I have been broken and I'm working on piecing myself back together atm.
I used to think that if I loved enough, my life would be good. I realized in doing so I lost myself. I let myself become someone I didn't want to be and now I am getting myself back.
I went from viewing life through these eyes that were full of stars, to seeing life for what it is.
I've known pain, I'm not saying I lived with my head in the clouds, but I lived for the wrong reasons........
I see myself for who I am now. And I see life and those around me with new eyes as well.
Not all wonderful, not all bad- it is what it is.
blah. maybe I should write about something else..............
I might delete this

 

I can relate. Our views change through time. (Shit, mine has changed many times in a short time period).

I think its a matter of growth. As to the stars... hehe... dude told me once 'The sun is always shining, sometimes there are just clouds blocking it from sight and sometimes its just on the other side of the world'.

The clouds will pass, another day will come, and all those stars will be viewed again with, like you said, a different perspective. (I'm guessing that they haven't changed as much as we have).

Love is one of the keys I'm realizing but there also needs to be an awareness as to the reason for the love. For me, love (for the right reasons) helps me get away from my own self-centeredness. For the wrong reasons, my love is about people pleasing and exacerbating my self-centeredness.

Also.... although we have never met personally... I love ya!!!! There are probably a gazillion people here on BL who have also never met you who also love you, regardless of how you see yourself or how you think we may see you.

Regrets aren't permanent and can be put into perspective. The past is static. For this reason i think you shouldn't delete this entry.

My .02% of a dollar

 

I needed that OD.
Thanks honey.