Opioids Can't stop relapsing what are my options?

[GetMeOutOfThisCRAP]

Basically I've had an on-and-off opioid addiction for essentially ten years. Only the first 5 were good which is lucky considering most only get 1 good year. I think my problem may be more than I can handle by myself. I'm going to attend NA meetings but I don't know what maintenance programs are like or available for people like me. The problem is the anxiety and depression every time I stop and go without them for a while. It's always bad enough to relapse and then finally have a great day again. The amount of money I've blown is inconceivable. I have a well-paying good job now and am perpetually afraid of fucking it up. Oxy/percocet/tapentadol/morphine pills etc. All of them have plagued my life.

 

[Allylbenzene]

This thread mentions at least a dozen OTC things that proactively reduce opioid dependence and prevent withdrawal symptoms. The goal was to support the entire opioid detox process in the most efficient way possible.

 

[RobustTuna]

Basically I've had an on-and-off opioid addiction for essentially ten years. Only the first 5 were good which is lucky considering most only get 1 good year. I think my problem may be more than I can handle by myself. I'm going to attend NA meetings but I don't know what maintenance programs are like or available for people like me. The problem is the anxiety and depression every time I stop and go without them for a while. It's always bad enough to relapse and then finally have a great day again. The amount of money I've blown is inconceivable. I have a well-paying good job now and am perpetually afraid of fucking it up. Oxy/percocet/tapentadol/morphine pills etc. All of them have plagued my life.

I can relate to your post on so many levels it's crazy. I recently relapsed back into a full blown opiate addiction after 5 years of sobriety. I've been on this merry go round so many times I've been able to continue to function but know at some point if I don't stop it's all gonna come crashing down again.

 

[paranoid android]

I qut for a few years then went back to using it occasonally for pain and to get high. I guess you could go that route

 

[Señor Moreno]

Quitting doesn't seem to be your problem, it's not a detox matter to obtain sobriety; your problem is making that abstinence last, your problem is relapsing again and again. The help that you need aren't comfort meds to make it throw wds, you probably need multispecific help, from therapists that help you to realize the extent and nature of your problem, to psychologist to approach those relapses and try to figure out what triggers them, so you could avoid triggering situations. Also they may help you to identify the weakest points of your personality, dark areas of us that we usually aren't aware of, but that often drive us to the wrong place without us even noticing it.

I know that you work and you won't be avle to take several months for your recovery, but as I have said, yours isn't a problem about detoxing that sould be solved in way less than a month. No, your problem stems from deep roots and you will need time to work to the botoom of the roots
You should look into some kind of long term treatment, and I think that some time in a GOO impatient facility for some months could help you a lot

 

[pixies+]

Quitting doesn't seem to be your problem, it's not a detox matter to obtain sobriety; your problem is making that abstinence last, your problem is relapsing again and again. The help that you need aren't comfort meds to make it throw wds, you probably need multispecific help, from therapists that help you to realize the extent and nature of your problem, to psychologist to approach those relapses and try to figure out what triggers them, so you could avoid triggering situations. Also they may help you to identify the weakest points of your personality, dark areas of us that we usually aren't aware of, but that often drive us to the wrong place without us even noticing it.

I know that you work and you won't be avle to take several months for your recovery, but as I have said, yours isn't a problem about detoxing that sould be solved in way less than a month. No, your problem stems from deep roots and you will need time to work to the botoom of the roots
You should look into some kind of long term treatment, and I think that some time in a GOO impatient facility for some months could help you a lot

You nailed it.

OP, you need to figure out why you desperately want to run away from your own mind.

What makes sitting with your own thoughts so fucking unbearable?

It’s not an easy thing to understand. There are many, many layers to the question and the answer.

Some people never ask.
Some people feel too stupid to reach out for help.
A LOT of people will never make it out of this “game” of addiction. They don’t understand that it’s not a game. This isn’t playtime. It’s life or fucking death.

 

[drewbocop]

Sounds like your problem isn't getting clean, it's having a reason for being clean. Join the party. My life is better on opioids/kratom and even then it's hollow and empty. It's a double-edged sword once you get to a certain level. I wish I had an answer for you, but I'm still struggling and I've been fucking with shit since I was 15. 38 now. Got off benzos, amphetamines, everything... but opioids? Good luck for me. I hope you have better luck, not to say it's hopeless. You have to find it inside of yourself as well as create healthy groups of people and habits that allow it to culimnate. Easier said than done, I get it. I'm an INTP loner in my natural state despite having natural charisma. Doesn't matter! It's a mind problem.

You nailed it.

OP, you need to figure out why you desperately want to run away from your own mind.

This isn’t playtime. It’s life or fucking death.

Exactly...