Venting Can't stop lying about my sobriety

[chokojpool]

In a few weeks will mark my (supposed) 8 month sobriety from meth, except it isn't true. I relapsed again earlier this week and I have probably relapsed about 4 or 5 other times before then. The same goes with alcohol, and whatever else I generally can get my hands on. I want to be truthful to my therapist and everyone else but I'm afraid it'll ruin my chances of keeping my job and of advancing in general. I feel like a failure and don't know what to do.
Has anyone else dealt with this? What do you do?

 

[BadBoy377]

In a few weeks will mark my (supposed) 8 month sobriety from meth, except it isn't true. I relapsed again earlier this week and I have probably relapsed about 4 or 5 other times before then. The same goes with alcohol, and whatever else I generally can get my hands on. I want to be truthful to my therapist and everyone else but I'm afraid it'll ruin my chances of keeping my job and of advancing in general. I feel like a failure and don't know what to do.
Has anyone else dealt with this? What do you do?

It happens. Important thing is you don't just say fuck it and go back on full time. If you relapsed then stopped again that's ok.

You should be honest with your therapist though. They shouldn't be telling anyone your private business you discuss. Maybe they can help you figure out why you relapse. Do you have an idea?