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Can't stop crying

Mugz

Mugz

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Seems my depression has reared it's ugly head once more, there have been a few days recently where I just can't stop crying, even now writing this there are tears falling down my face. I'm not sure why it is so bad, I have a good life, with a job and a great fiance who loves and supports me but I still feel like I fail at life totally. I'm not built for this world, I wish I could just stay asleep forever sometimes.

Distracting myself with films and tv yesterday did stop the non stop crying episodes mainly. But they would come back with ease.

I have to go to work later and I really don't want to start breaking down in tears at work.

I can't see the doctor until thursday so I guess I am going to have to just try and deal with it until then.

Has anyone got any tips for stopping yourself from crying when things are starting to overwhelm you and you pretty much can't stop yourself from an outburst of tears?

This seems like a load of gibberish about me crying and it is, I know a lot of people will just say, "suck it up man" "just get on with life" and stuff like that. Which is really what I should be doing but sometimes I just can't help it and it becomes out of my control.
 
That's the problem, there is no massive reason for all the crying, little things that I would normally brush off are making me cry and I don't really know why. Forgetting to call my sister the other day when I had promised to call her made me cry. Washing the clean bedsheets by accident made me cry. Just thinking about how I fail at all the simple things in life made me cry.

There is no big reason for the crying, My mind is just overreacting and getting overemotional in response to things and I end up crying. I'm really trying to just tell myself to snap out of it, and there are times when I am doing stuff that takes my focus away from inside me head that I feel fine.

It's like when I start crying it is really hard to turn it off and stop.

I should probably add that I am taking alprazolam daily for my anxiety and this could be having some effect on my depression too, as the worst outbreaks occur when it has been a while since my last dose.
 
whats your daily dose of alprazolam? overreaction can be caused by withrawal of benzos.

is your life good so far? do you have friends an familiy, an active live or is it all gone just as in my case?
 
I normally take about 2mg of alprazolam a day I would guess, but since it is not prescribed I can't be certain, I have powdered alprazolam that is diluted. It hasn't been tested so I'm still not sure if it is even alprazolam, but whatever it is is acts like alprazolam and cures my anxiety.

My life is really good, Things are really going well at the moment, good friends, great fiance, good job, but I sometimes feel as though it is all an illusion and that I can't keep up this good life forever, and that it is bound to fall down and collapse on me sooner or later.
 
Ive had a few issues like this while I was at work (crying a lot and hard to keep myself from just bursting out balling--or even just a few tears)

I just close my eyes, take a few deep breathes and just calm myself down by counting to ten (or count ten big breathes). Your eyes will be hella watery for a minute but it really helps me hold in the tears.
 
I have had recurrent depression for the last 8 years, been using benzos on and off the last 7 years too. I really don't want my depression to come back fully again as in the past it has ruined my life and work and relationships, I need this time to be different. I need to somehow fight it and tell it to fuck off. Easier said than done though.
 
benzos are more against anxiety. U should combine it with some anti depressants.
i take lorazepam and paroxetine combined. One against depression, the other against anxiety.
ask your doc for it.

i know that all is a hard fight, ive been fighting for years now and im not the guy i was before. But i still can manage my life..

theres often the wish to end it all tho, but keep fighting as long as u can. It might get better one day. We have to wish and hope.

all the best to you and take care :)

eric
 
FkdItAllUp said:
benzos are more against anxiety. U should combine it with some anti depressants.
i take lorazepam and paroxetine combined. One against depression, the other against anxiety.
ask your doc for it.
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This is good advice. Sometimes it takes a little while to find out what will work for you, but you will get there. I totally understand where you are coming from (crying over nothing). I'm currently on an SNRI and see a therapist and the combination has made such a difference.

Really consider therapy if it is a viable option for you. I thought it was BS at first but venting to a neutral person a few hours a week is such a relief for me.

Good luck and stay strong.
 
Are you doing something that you don't want to share with the internet (understandably) or that you aren't even aware of? Realistically, there are probably many things you could find to improve on to give you peace of mind.

I have found that being content comes from a good setting like you have (you are much, much closer than you think due to this, to get to this highest point that we know took a whole universe's time up until now) along with a good mind set. It sounds like your head is decently sorted out, but it won't seem to stay that way consistently.

Life does have a push-pull element to it that is ingrained in the structure and society of our world. I can't say I suffer from depression at the moment and my apologies go out for not being able to fully relate, but I think that last sentence is relevant to all life just due to how big it is. Try to sort out what YOU think you are doing relatively wrong, if you don't know, seek it first. With time (something we all have to deal with even though our ego wants to shatter it) I think you will become well with the right actions, good luck man. <3
 
I agree with above post. Has there been some type of trauma that you're trying to come to grips with? If you are not prescribed alprazolam, maybe you should cut down. Especially since you aren't getting it from a pharmacy. Please get a professional opinion before you self-medicate. I remember after my sister died, each time I would be alone in the car I would just cry uncontrollably. But you feel like "you fail at life" Is there something that happened to bring this on? I would try and find a therapist who you can talk to and get to the root of this. It will help you and you won't regret that. I don't think this will go away on it's own. Much luck to you, Theresa
 
good advice form calderone, maybe the only possibility.
if you dont know the reason of your crying you have to figure it out. either by yourself or with a psychologist.
 
Do you find that the crying is more related to sadness/depression or anxiety? I go through times where I become more emotionally sensitive and small things can make me want to cry. This is especially true if there are major issues going on which I often try to ignore, so my emotions will come out in other areas. There is a feeling of sadness associated with this.

But I've also had anxiety crying where the level of anxiety is so high that it becomes almost unbearable and I just want to pull out my hair and burst into tears. Completely different feeling from the other one, IMO more unpleasant. You mentioned dealing with anxiety so I was curious if that could be related to it.
 
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mugabe said:
Seems my depression has reared it's ugly head once more, there have been a few days recently where I just can't stop crying, even now writing this there are tears falling down my face. I'm not sure why it is so bad, I have a good life, with a job and a great fiance who loves and supports me but I still feel like I fail at life totally. I'm not built for this world, I wish I could just stay asleep forever sometimes.

Distracting myself with films and tv yesterday did stop the non stop crying episodes mainly. But they would come back with ease.

I have to go to work later and I really don't want to start breaking down in tears at work.

I can't see the doctor until thursday so I guess I am going to have to just try and deal with it until then.

Has anyone got any tips for stopping yourself from crying when things are starting to overwhelm you and you pretty much can't stop yourself from an outburst of tears?

This seems like a load of gibberish about me crying and it is, I know a lot of people will just say, "suck it up man" "just get on with life" and stuff like that. Which is really what I should be doing but sometimes I just can't help it and it becomes out of my control.
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I cry, Mugabe. Hours a day, usually. Of course, some days are better than others. Personally I'm prescribed 200mg of Zoloft daily, 22mg of Clorazapate and up to 8 Norco as well, the last two for chronic pain. I have a weak-ass 'script for Lorazapam, but since it doesn't even slow down my anxiety attacks (or crying jags for that matter, they are usually co-existent) and I'm poor, I rely on harder benzos I get from friends for free and lots and lots of weed. In fact, in my experience, weed has helped me the most with being able to find a space to breath AWAY from my emotions, especially the helpless despair the sobbing is associated with for me. My advice (as per usual) is to roast those bowls and find media that makes you at least smile.
Anyone who assumes that all people can "buck up" and "fix problems in their life to solve depression and anxiety" obviously means well, but doesn't get it. I've done my fair share of psychological work, I've reduced and overcome stressors. I've achieved difficult goals I've set out for myself. I am highly educated. Finished college a year early. I have a fucked up, but close and loving family. None of these things has taken away that deep knowledge that I think you feel too Mugabe, that what you are inside isn't enough for coping with this world. Think about it this way: More great literature has been written about the depressions and manias of the human mind throughout the world than almost any other subject. Especially the great Russian novelists! Perhaps it's just part of the human condition for some of us.
 
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Mate from reading your posts in EADD I can see you have been hammering the serotonergic drugs of late, after sessioning on the serotonergics is one time when I get teary. I'd knock them on the head for a bit and see if it improves.
 
My advice is to discuss with your fiancee how you feel.

I have experimented with different things to try to make myself feel better at times, ranging from surrounding yourself with happy things, to the exact opposite, in order to shock myself out of being depressed.

Then again either one of these can seriously back-fire.

Have you tried therapy?
 
I have discussed the whole thing with my fiance and she has been very supportive throughout but doesn't really know what to do to help other than just be there for me, it is hard for her to see me like it when I am crying and crying and depressed.

Have arranged a doctors appointment on thursday, I told the doctor on the phone today that I have been self medicating with benzos and my anxiety and depression are getting really bad again. So hopefully I will be able to get something sorted at the doctors this week. I would really like to see a psychotherapist weekly but I can't afford to do it privately, hopefully I might be able to get something sorted like that with the doctor on thursday.

I did go to see a therapist a few weeks ago and she offered me something that I am hoping to do, but it cant start until december. There is a British association of psychotherapy reduced fee scheme that the therapist I went to see is a part of, she is doing her Phd and in december she needs a male patient for her study. It would be perfect for me too as it would be 3 times weekly therapy for Jungian Analytic. This would be a 2 year committment at only £6 per session.

I think that I would benefit greatly from 2 years intensive therapy at a price that I could afford like that. It is a shame that I have to wait until december to be able to start it.

I really need some sort of therapy now too.
 
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