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Can't seem to shake this meth binging cycle...

Tomorrow (today) is the start of a new life for me.
I'm not touching the shit ever again.

It's the third time I've tried to quit and I honestly believe this will be it.
 
Just thought i would throw in my 2c's

Long time user 10+ years, quitting ain't easy but it can be done, it took for me to leave the country to stop. I still would love to have a puff, but i know what will happen if i do, and what its already's done to a lot of good friends of mine. In the long run, not worth it, good times, good memories, but not worth the bs. Just stick to the odd bit of md and weed, its the way to go :)
 
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quitting meth, is hard. i was a daily user for about 4years. When I stopped. I pretty much stop hanging around with all my meth using friends for at least 4 months.
Best of LUCK!

have you tried Heroin before? I hear its a great drug to take away the meth addiction
 
Lol 10/10 headdah.

I moved interstate to get away from meth. It took 2 days to realise I picked the wrong town to move to. Every night is a Friday night here.
 
Meth Epidemic YOOOOOO.

should totes blame the Federal Police for burning down all those good trees in Cambodia which totally contributed to the mdma shortage. I first tried meth when I couldn't get any good pills!
 
please dont remind me of that mdma drought again! Almost shed man tears thinking back to those dark days. plus the misinformation that followed of people who bought so called 'speed', me included. when i was in high school, the stuff we presumed was the euro sulfate equivalent, was really just a p2p racemic meth prep. no wonder it was so good! as a late teen trying street 'speed,'(snorted) compared to the smoked or oral crystal d-meth or, instantaneously like a gunshot to your head. the gluggy stuff made me want to puff my chest like a gorilla and tingled and rushed from head to toe. The seismic mood lift- from drugged out sleep deprived chump to big shot ceo crushin it in the fast lane on the autobahn in a carerra gt,and all in just seconds. Your you, but better. But its short-lived.

Taxing on the body, hence why id rather vapourize or orally ingest d-meth or d-amp. I can kind of see why muricans like adderall and drug users from overseas prefer it. It has this kick that sometimes is needed in the morning, when the black coffee or meds arent enough!

I find the d-amp on its own for me at therapeutic doses makes me want to lay down and relax. Kind of an ahhhh! feeling, after having to deal with my fidgety, impulsive and exhausting psyche when unmedicated. I think Adderall would be better for my adhd though if you could even buy it here, speaking purely from a medical sense. Although i need a LOT of d amp to feel a recreational effect i percieve as adequate, or satisfied with. Thats a good thing. Lets be reasonable though, after snorting and smokin a buttload of meth and familiarising with the rush, a perceived rec. dose is off the charts for oral dosing of inferior amps.

Im proud to have broken my pipe ages ago now and havnt touched the stuff since i cant remember now after a big habit. to quits one thing, recovery is another.Without a doubt there has been irreversible damage that can not be altered and i can clearly feel something is off, but the belief in myself that if i can be true to my word and actually never consume meth again, i will feel like any feat is within reach.

The most terrifying and insidious thing about this form of speed which is so terrifying, is even after all the horrible baggage that comes with being a user, to have experienced that euphoria, those heights, outweighs and supersedes any logical, coherent reasoning to cease use forever.

After a few months in my parents' basement, I took an apartment near the state university, where I discovered both crystal methamphetamine and conceptual art. Either one of the these things are dangerous, but in combination they have the potential to destroy entire civilizations.

David Sedaris, Me Talk Pretty One Day (2000).

Sorry for the rant
 
I am at the point where I just want to inject meth every day, whenever the rush wears off and every day. This fucking scares the heck out of me, irreversible brain damage and losing the ability to be truly happy and full of life is absolutely terrifying. I still inject meth most days though and im doing more, its becoming more of a need rather than a want. I spend just about all my money on it, my friends are nowhere to be seen, my family find it very difficult to understand even though they think they do. They also find it very difficult to watch me self abuse and wither away mentally to something akin to the schizophrenic homeless guy you saw when you were young and nieve. Luckily im not really affected physically and I think its to do with injecting rather than smoking or snorting or orally using. Ive notices the IV users arms look shocking but overall they look healthier than the smokers/others. Also when I had my bout with old school speed that made me look terrible and feel even worse. Thats some toxic shit man, ever since crystal came along ive long forgotten speed and use crystal exclusively except for my beloved mj and benzo's for the come down and when im really mentally unwell.

Ive had 2 100mg shots since the PM started and im desperate for another blast but a giant one, like 2.5 points which would have killed me only 1 or 2 weeks ago but the 2 shots I had today which were 1 loint each didn't do it for me. I didn't get a rush and I haven't had the usual euphoric, sexual, occupying and utterly amazing feeling im used to after that hypodermic leaves my arm and within seconds I feel like I'm going to throw up, my head tingles, I immediately start sweating profusely, and those beautiful chemicals that cause all the euphoria are put to work. Anxiety dissipates, negative thoughts become something to laugh at as you perceive it all in a totally different ways that enable you to know that it's not always your fault and some people are good at passing the blame on to others. Yeh I got a bit personal then but its my experience.
 
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