Can't post

I really can't bring myself to post everything. Even high its too hard. Lets just say I talked to the ex and he hurt me. Stupid me went crying to Sean. Now it looks like I am likely to be dumped. Some would think that it would only be the BPD that I don't want to be rejected and abandoned but its so much more than that. I don't want to lose someone I love! Someone that can make me happy when nothing else does and my whole world is falling apart. I MUST forget about the ex. Somehow. Sean won't stay with me if he is in my life because all he does is hurt me. OF course he don't want to be second to him, but also he wants what is best for me. All my ex has ever done has hurt me. Spent more time miserable than happy with the ex. I have told Sean that I have deleted everything and I won't be speaking to him again, but Sean just says "Yeah until the next time" How can I prove that I'm serious. I don't want to lose him! Any ideas?

Um too worked up for this. I cried a lil earlier but 200mg Tramadol, now scripted (evil smile, all I do is ask for it.) I'm not now but its really hurting.

I can't believe that my ex is still taking my happiness from me. Well damn it he can't do it if I don't let him.........but it may be too late.

 

The only way you can prove it is to follow through and not have contact with your ex anymore. Any time he tries to get a hold of you or you feel like you want to talk to him just remember all that he made you go through and how you're better off with Sean.