I'm now 28, and as time has moved on since my first job at 15 and a half, the time I've stayed at the jobs have seemed to get much much shorter. I've never stayed at a job more than 1.5 yrs. I quit my last two jobs because of my OCD/Depression and other issues in my life that became so overwhelming to the point I was in a shi tty mood all day. People began to notice it at work too.
So over the past 3 years I've been trying to get back on my feet. i.e. (getting a stable job, getting my own place again, and being able to tolerate it while enjoying a social life as well). In the past year I've quit temp jobs after a day cause my mood is affected so bad by them that I rationalize "I'd rather be broke than miserable."
These have mostly been office jobs, so I decided to check out other areas of employment. I became a personal trainer at an LA Fitness and quit that, then I became a Chauffeur and quit that as well. There's a lot of self talking going on saying "you're a bitch, just do it etc." and there's also another side that leads me to believe the feelings I get at these jobs are more intense than others experience (but I can't really say for sure cause I'm not in anyone else's shoes).
Anyhow, when I get a job, the first day goes well, then once the ball get's rolling I'm just in a shitty mood while at work at outside of work. I feel so trapped, like I need to escape when I'm at a job. The feelings are literally so powerful that I'll take the freedom over the money, even though the job duties are easy.
I've been diagnosed with OCD/Major depression in the past but I really try to not let that define me. I have to work to be healthy as a whole and to provide for myself.
This has been going on for years and I'm approaching 30 and am afraid I'll be living with my parents forever and never be able to secure employment. I have a bachelor's degree in business as well but now I just see it as a huge debt I owe.
Any help, input, suggestions, advice, questions, constructive criticism is appreciated.
So over the past 3 years I've been trying to get back on my feet. i.e. (getting a stable job, getting my own place again, and being able to tolerate it while enjoying a social life as well). In the past year I've quit temp jobs after a day cause my mood is affected so bad by them that I rationalize "I'd rather be broke than miserable."
These have mostly been office jobs, so I decided to check out other areas of employment. I became a personal trainer at an LA Fitness and quit that, then I became a Chauffeur and quit that as well. There's a lot of self talking going on saying "you're a bitch, just do it etc." and there's also another side that leads me to believe the feelings I get at these jobs are more intense than others experience (but I can't really say for sure cause I'm not in anyone else's shoes).
Anyhow, when I get a job, the first day goes well, then once the ball get's rolling I'm just in a shitty mood while at work at outside of work. I feel so trapped, like I need to escape when I'm at a job. The feelings are literally so powerful that I'll take the freedom over the money, even though the job duties are easy.
I've been diagnosed with OCD/Major depression in the past but I really try to not let that define me. I have to work to be healthy as a whole and to provide for myself.
This has been going on for years and I'm approaching 30 and am afraid I'll be living with my parents forever and never be able to secure employment. I have a bachelor's degree in business as well but now I just see it as a huge debt I owe.
Any help, input, suggestions, advice, questions, constructive criticism is appreciated.
) so maybe your goal should be to get something that you view as temporary but that will support you and then explore through volunteer work what work situation would actually feel good to you.