Can't do it

I saw her...

C and I almost broke up. I told him we couldn't change eachother to be something we are not. I don't want to live in the country (bumfucknowhere). I respect that all his family is there, and he has strong ties, but they hate me. We CONCLUDED that there was no hope for our future. My best friend and I parted ways.
A few hours later, he called me, crying, his mother on the phone, telling me she didn't blame me for his ODing. He FOUGHT with his parents over me! The bad girl whose own family hardly even wants her. And it was sweet... and I do love him- It's just- something's off. We are BFF, and he loves me so much.
Seeing my first love's pics tonight reminded me of how that used to feel. Wanting to be with someone the rest of your life. Have I ever felt that way about C? I'm not sure...

 

Not all.

 

He may be able to lie to her face, but you can't lie to yourself.

I respect that in you. You're better than second best. A man that will break his vows for you will break his vows to you.