Cant decide whehter i want to take drugs again or not and its really pissing me off

[walterdini]

What drugs specifically r u thinking about taking? How much and for how long would u take em?

Like others have said u def don't have a drug problem, and ull def benefit from therapy of some kind (who wouldn't really) so its seems like all u want to know is how to minimize the the bad symptoms of the crash right?

It'll help answer ur Q if u be more specific bout ur plans?

 

[herbavore]

I'd say the fact that you spend so much time thinking about drugs indicates a deeper issue. True casual users don't do that. Most casual users I know are pretty happy with their lives and enjoy getting high occasionally in and of itself (in the same way you might enjoy adrenaline rush activities every now and then but wouldn't want to do them every day). I think that if you compare basic contentment with the intensity of a drug-induced high you're setting an unsustainable standard for happiness.
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Exactly.

Try to look deeper. What would you like your life to look like? Then ask yourself what you can do to initiate changes that will be more stimulating to you. Maybe you don't like your work? Where you live? A lack of new experiences?

I love the word 'strategies'. Strategies are tools for making change. Change is a process but it starts with a plan--or many little plans.

When you describe life as a "torment" it seems dangerous to throw any drugs in the mix. Try to listen to what is not working and push your boundaries out a little. Working with a therapist (even an on-line therapist) would probably help you clarify some of this. Are you in England? Is that why there is a 6-month wait?

 

[Vaya]

It sounds as though you feel truly preoccupied and overwhelmed by this question Harambulus. I'm sorry it's been plaguing you consistently, and for so long

As others have said, this... infatuation with drug-taking seems to be taking its toll on you.

I remember when I was a full-blown drug addict (not calling you an addict; it's merely a point-of-relation), I would drive myself bat-shit crazy ruminating over "to drug, or not to drug?" essentially. It was awful. I was never at peace.

Do you seek peace from drug use? It seems as though, if you're anything like me, the drug use may be causing your disquieted state of mind.

Just a thought.

~ Vaya