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Cannibals and zombies

sonicwhite

sonicwhite

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To any of those who read my story. Well I'm going to go more imdepth with it. I caught a std got it cheked out as soon as I knew something wasn't right. I get cleaned up and they ask me do I want a blood test I said yes. Now here where lies the problem. I never went back to the hospital to get the results. I started dating this girl and we loved each other. Well after 5 months I started since I didn't get the results I could of gave her HIV. So I'm walking all around OKC thinking about suicide. I'm getting worse and worse. I'm starting to go into a full blown psychosis. I get on a payphone and I call the cops and tells them that I assume I gave a girl HIV. You can only imagen there reaction. and how hard they came down on me. Even more stress to deal with I go to jail and get out. I eat 5 XTC pills at once. I wanted to die. I walk to the nearest gas station and I'm acting all wig out. They said if I don't leave they will call the cops. So the cops came. I put my chocolate milk on his unit and He started knocking the shit out of me. Then they take me to jail the same day I get out. They put a cathiter in me and gave me two shots from a auto injector. I thought they where going to strap me up and chopped me up. So I go asleep anfter they shot me up with prolly Ativan and haldol. anyways I get out of detox and I asked my roommate to take me to anna's house. By then I was really out of it. I'm walking down the street with no shoes on and she follows me and then a cop came and arrested me again. So now I'm back in jail for the third time. The next day I get out I'm completely psychotic and I thought my roomats where cannibals and so I ran to a house that had red and blue lights on it. I thought maybe they where cops. I broke there window and went to jail a fourth time. This time how ever I was catatomic and I would speak to anybody. I got beat up. Ppl look like zombies and It was just one fucked up trip. Here I am today hoping I can help someone. This is the story in better detail also I don't hsve HIV so it was all just palin paranoia from using to much meth.
 
Lay off the meth mate and go see a doctor to get yourself checked out.
Hope you start to feel better soon.
 
Sonic I would contact the hospital where they tested you. The hard thing is not knowing and it could be something minor that antibiotics would cure. Or it could be nothing at all. You need to find some peace of mind bro, serious. Plus you have an obligation to your girlfriend to follow through with this.

You're the same Sonic from pharmer, right? I remember talking to you a couple years ago. Glad you found bluelight!
 
Ya I'm the same sonic from Pharmer and all this happened in 05. I've already been checked out by docs and Well I should of explained it better. There's another post called the story I wrote and this one just has better detail.
 
Sonic, that is pretty much a horror story. I can't really imagine surviving that intact and I am really glad that you have. You are resilient! One of the things that infuriates me in this world is putting people that are in obvious psychosis in fucking jail.:! This world we humans have created is so sad and backwards in so many ways. When I hear stories like yours, all I can do is look up at the sky and concentrate on being thankful for the color blue. Otherwise I get so upset and angry that it threatens to roll me right into depression.

i'm glad that you survived and I am glad that Bluelight exists and that you have a place to tell your story.<3
 
Ya I was non responsive and I thought everybody was out to kill me. I was in jail for 2 and half months. Got out and lost everything I had. Karma bad karma is what I call it because I had done some shady stuff in my life and I guess I had it coming. They knew I was fucked up in the head yet they would not give me a advocate to help me because I was Spallder brains.
 
Sonicwhite,

Please - for your own sake and safety - consider others' suggested advice regarding seeking help for obvious acute psychosis. I have worked with many people who avoided asking for help and wound up committing multiple crimes, spending months on end in prison, and a few wound up committing suicide.

These patients and acquaintances universally rejected the opportunities that fortifying their mental health because, in their minds, admitting that they had a problem of a severity so strong represented defeat for them.

I have found, over the course of my own trials and tribulations, that oftentimes by admitting defeat, I often prevail in the end. I wish the same for you, my friend.
<3

~ Vaya
 
No I don't plan to off anybody. I'm like a little kitty thst just's want's to be loved. I know I made alot of mistakes in my life and ruined ppl's lives so I reaped what I had sowed. I just truly know the world is a fuck up place.
 
Sounds good. Hope You get fully right soon. May be this all happened by hearing back some stories or news related to cannibals and all. There are lot of better things to concentrate and don't mind these stories.

Cannibalism Attacks
 
Shit...that sounds horrifying. I agree with what everyone else has said, you should see a doctor for the psychosis, clearly (and try to lay off the meth). It's so fucked up you were put in jail for that, and sadly you're not the only one. So many people get locked up who need to see doctors and need help with mental problems instead. It's ridiculous.
 
All this happened in 05. I am on psych meds and I no longer smoke meth. Lost the girl of my dreams but, thats water under the bridge. Today I mostly deal with OCD and thinking I'm dead and at God's Judgement. Thats the theme of my OCD. So I had it coming once I hit 20. I'm 27 now and still deal with residue from that horrifing end times scnerio.
 
Can you imagen being it what to me looked like a meat mill and Everybody that got arrested would go to the third floor. Thats where they chop you up and torture you. I stay's On the first floor and every body had this glow to them like they where all going to die or where died. I sometimes have dreams of that episode and the only thing I can say is as worse as like that dude on Law Abiding Cititzen would be a child molester. I have saught help and have gone thru many flash backs of thinking I was the one next in line to go thru the meat grinder. Thats how bad meth fucks up your head. I'm just being real I have been thru some shit but I cn help other avoide going thru what I did.
 
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