Cannabis (smoked) - First Time - Scary Trip (Wasn't Ready)

[Vinko]

Hello all! This is my first post over here and let's see how it goes.

Description of drug: Cannabis(Strong strain)

Background information:
I'm 20 year old male, college student, been doing good very good in general, except after this trip I have been feeling a lot anxiety and fear.
So 2 months ago I decided to smoke weed for the first time with my friend who was a lot more experienced. Didn't expect anything like this.

The experience:

So here starts the story. We were with my friend in a house in a silent neighborhood just planned to get high for the evening and play games/chill.
So we made everything ready and took our first bong hits, I was maybe a bit nervous.
After first bong hit we just talked like 10-15 minutes and I waited for the effects to come. My friend said he could feel the positive effects and that he was becoming high. I couldn't yet feel anything so we decided to take soon another hits.
Then like 20 minutes after the first hit we took second hits. Like 5 minutes after second hit i started to feel very little positive vibes, a bit chill.
After the second hit we played some games on Ps4 and I didn't feel so much anything yet just a bit more chilled. I was like completely normal and thought that I want to be high.
Something like 15 minutes after the second hit I decided maybe one more hit and I can get more chilled and high.

After the third hit is when the horrible trip started. We sat down to sofa play some Fifa and like 5 minutes of playing and I get some intense feelings to my whole body. I said to my friend that I'm starting to feel something.
I just thought that now the effects are coming, and kept playing. But then the feelings are getting a lot worse in my body(like skin burning or something), and I'm starting to freak out a bit. I said to my friend that I got strange feeling and I'm getting a bit scared. Then I thought this is not good feeling and started to fear a lot. Then I thought that I need to move and stood up from the sofa and I wanted to go to backyard. I walked like 3 meters towards to backyard from the sofa and then boom!, I was back at the sofa, getting those feelings in my body and saying to my friend that I'm feeling something strange. Then again I started to walk towards backyard and got like 3 meters longer than last time and then again boom!, back at the beginning, in the sofa with those feelings. This somekind of loop (Physical loop?) happened like 5-6 times, and on every loop I could walk couple more meters towards the backyard until it started from the beginning. I went to lie on the grass and had no fucking idea what was happening. I somehow lost touch with reality. I was totally panicking and I was very scared that I had gone insane and that this loop will never end. My friend came also to backyard and tried to calm me down a bit and for a little while I got myself up and told to my friend what just happened. We sat down for a second in backyard and I was still very confused and after like 5 minutes I started again to feel these same feelings in my body and started to freak out again that I end up in a loop again. I got a lot of thoughts and feelings that I could just realize that what was now happening could be just one loop which I would realize soon. I wasn't aware of time on that situation. I was just yelling to myself and trying to keep myself somehow sane/reasonable, my hearth was pounding like 200bpm. I also had thoughts that ambulance is coming and I just soon realize that I'm in ambulance going to hospital and this is not real world where I'm in backyard. I was totally lost and I just wanted it to end. At some point I was asking from my friend that "you sure this was really weed and will this never end?" and when he was just normal high and saying "yeye" it helped me somehow.
At somewhere middle of the period of this intense panic/anxiety/fear I was able to say myself just go listen some music and just be. This was where I started for a little be more aware of the happening, just lying on the sofa with music on. And for the next 1-2 hour I was still very confused but not with this intense panic/anxiety/fear. I had some strange feelings when I went to get water or something like deja vu / weird seeing the future , like this moment had happened before a million times. And my friend was playing on Ps4 and I got feelings like i couldn't understand things what was going on/happening etc...

Then when the hours passed I started to calm down and bit more comfortable but somehow I was still very confused/negative about what happened. Is something like this normal to happen?

After this happening I have been feeling somehow not normal as I was before this (2 months now). I have felt somehow negative(like everything is bit like a dream/not so real), and I have also got like mild versions of those body feelings which I felt during this trip.
I got also like scary thoughts that I somehow damaged myself or I might be going insane etc. And what if I had somekind of drug-induced psychosis and what if this kind of happening could happen/be relived at anytime, without substance.(These kind of thoughts comes up to my mind). I somehow can't get my mind off from this trip.

Thanks to all for reading and I'm here to discuss if you got anything to comment / share.
Peace!

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[Speed King]

Hey. Interesting trip report. First highs are the best. A lot of people trip out the first time. I am glad you are okay. The first thing that you should of known better then taking multiple bong hits without knowing how strong the cannabis was. Your friend should of told you.

You need to let the negative thoughts go. You didn?t cause brain damage. You might have had intense negative thoughts, but you got through it. Time to let it go. In fact, now that you realize you had to much to fast, get a indica strain. They are more sedating.

You are okay. You simply had a strong strain.

Nice report. Glad you are okay now.

 

[MDPV_Psychosis]

The thought loops, feelings of deja Vu, intense confusion and intense anxiety are all normal experiences when too high a dose of cannabis is consumed.

Three bong hits of strong marijuana is ALOT for somebody with no tolerance. With no tolerance, one small hit is too much for me. One bong hit for me would have me feeling EXTREME anxiety.

It's sounds like the experience traumatized you a bit as you say your still not feeling right. This will pass with time. Maybe it's best to stay away from all drugs until you feel ok again.

If you do try to smoke cannabis sometime again don't smoke via a bong. Take small hits from a regular pipe and give yourself plenty of time in-between hits.

 

[Xorkoth]

Yeah that sort of experience is totally normal when you smoke multiple bong hits of weed. I've been smoking weed most days (and all day every day for years in the past) for 17 years, and I visited Colorado recently and got some really good stuff from a shop. Oh MAN did I get high, my friend who I was visiting and I smoked a joint of it, and he was used to it since he lives there but I live where it isn't legal even medicinally and what I usually get can be pretty good, but it had nothing on this. I was definitely feeling somewhat panicky for a bit despite smoking nearly every day for half my life. Weed is one of the most anxiety-producing substances I've ever encountered to be honest, I know a few people for whom it reduces anxiety, but for me and most people, if you have too much it can really fuck with you. But it's just part of the effects of the drug, it's not brain damage, don't worry.

I think you're worrying yourself into a strange mental place, people do it without drugs too. The experience was traumatic for you, and trauma can make you feel very strange. What you should seek to do is frame the experience differently in your mind and stop worrying about it. It's already happened, it's in the past, it was scary but you're fine. If you don't keep thinking about it like "oh man, that was horrible, will I ever recover?", it will pass and you'll feel right as rain in no time.

But yeah should you ever decide to try again, don't smoke nearly as much. A single bong rip is enough to be too much for me sometimes, I would never take 3 in a row personally. Back in my total stoner days I would do that but I was high 24/7 so my tolerance was absurdly high. Your friend should have put more thought into providing your first time, he should have known better.