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cannabis---felt my heart explode, saw my dead body

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randust16

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I've smoked marijuana about 17 times. The last 3 or 4 times i've done it, i;ve been getting worse and worse effects. Last night was the worst of all;

Strange, undescribable visions popped into my head. I could not get rid of one in particular which was especially strange. I started hearing that ice cream truck music along with this vision. At first, it was all really interesting, but then for some reason i started feeling scared. My heart was beating really fast, so this made me freak out and i started having a panic attack. I thought my heart was going to explode and i was having all kinds of visions of my heart blowing up into peices. i tried telling my boyfriend that i thought my heart was going to blow up, but the words came out all jumbled up. He tried to calm me down, and then i remember just lying on the bed and my heart really did seem to explode. I floated up out of my body. I was dead. And i was looking down on my body, and there was blood everywhere because my heart had exploded out of my chest. People were hovering around my body and saying i was the first person ever to die from smoking pot.

The second strangest part of all this was that i snapped out of it so suddenly. Something funny came on the TV and as soon as i realized this, i had floated back into my body and come back to life. Then i was laughing hysterically at what was on the TV.

After a couple hours, the effects were mostly worn off, I watched a movie and then went to sleep. I know i shouldn't be surprised by all of this, since i have schizophrenia. The thing that scares me though, is that i will still want to smoke pot even after this terrifying experience. Last night, i told myself i would never smoke it again, but right now im feeling differently about it all, even though it was really scary. I've always been this way with my hallucinations. They can scare the shit out of me when they are happening, but after i calm down from it all, i feel like i want more.
It's like i have some sort of addiction to being "insane"
 
I had bad anxiety episodes while smoking weed, and have had really really bad panic attacks. I would advise you to either quit smoking or just ride the damn thing. If I start feeling wild, I just say fuck it, and accept it, and not fight it. I haven't had a panic attack in months.
 
randust16 said:
I know i shouldn't be surprised by all of this, since i have schizophrenia.
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Not to judge (because its not my place) however it would be really interesting to understand why.

Wouldn't smoking cannabis with schizophrenia be akin to a person with terrible cardiac problems taking speed?

Also are you on medication for your condition. Perhaps there was a interaction with your condition, the medication and cannabis which caused the above reaction?
 
chugs said:
Not to judge (because its not my place) however it would be really interesting to understand why.

Wouldn't smoking cannabis with schizophrenia be akin to a person with terrible cardiac problems taking speed?
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yes. I know it seems real strange to everyone else. It's hard to explain. I've been having the symptoms of schizophrenia since i was really little. I've gotten use to being "crazy" ..it's just who i am. Without my hallucinations and such, i feel like im missing a part of myself. That's one of the reasons i started trying drugs. Im on medications for all this, so i don't hardly hallucinate anymore and It can get depressing to be without those "symptoms"

But anyways, thanks for being nice about it all. Usually i get responses like : "Your so stupid! why the hell would you use drugs when you have a condition like that!"
...but i don't think it has anything to do with being "stupid" . It's a more complex issue for me.

Oh, and i was thinking too that maybe the meds i am on (abilify, cymbalta,and trazadone) are part of what's made me have bad reactions to the cannabis. Like you said, it could be a combination of my condition and the medication which caused me to react like this .
 
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i dont have schizophrenia but ive had similar reactions to cannabis, panick attacks and the like. for some strange reason, i also had the desire to keep smoking after these experiences. i didnt stop until about 8 months ago and im afraid i did permanent damage to my heart.
 
I don't smoke weed (or at least - more than a few puffs of a joint) because of similar reasons.

And I don't want to sound condescending or reactionary but if you are diagnosed with schizophrenia I would quit weed. My Uncle is schizophrenic but was relatively normal until he spent a week long road trip smoking weed with some friends when he was younger. He was never the same after that and has lived on the street for the last twenty years or so.

I'm not being a cunt or trying to alarm you but just take it easy :)

His condition could also be exacerbated by the fact that he has never taken any medication for it, so I'm not blaming it entirely on the ganj, but there are proven links between cannabis usage and the onset of more severe symptoms so be careful.
 
randust16 said:
The thing that scares me though, is that i will still want to smoke pot even after this terrifying experience.
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the seeker said:
for some strange reason, i also had the desire to keep smoking after these experiences. i didnt stop until about 8 months ago and im afraid i did permanent damage to my heart.
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Well I guess I'm not alone, weed drives my heart harder than ice and leaves my mind torn to shreds - but after a good nights sleep I'm always ready for another bowl :\
 
i know the feeling of being addicted to wanting to be insane sort of feeling

the first time i did dxm i freaked the fuck out, thought i was dying, but the next morning i thought it was an awesome feeling, how i wish i would have appreciated it and wanted to do it again, and my dxm experiences have all been good overall since then.

but everyone gets bad pot expiereces, don't feel bad to do it again.
 
^ While everyone gets bad experiences, the poster is a diagnosed schizophrenic. While there may be no problem, that should certainly be taken into account.
 
lostpunk5545 said:
^ While everyone gets bad experiences, the poster is a diagnosed schizophrenic. While there may be no problem, that should certainly be taken into account.
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^Seriously, i can't say it's dumb to want to smoke weed while you're schizophrenic, but it really is not the best idea. You really should be careful knowing your condition, correct me if im wrong but hasnt weed been proven to bring out certain underlying mental conditions in people? If you're going to continue smoking i'd suggest you do it very rarely, or only on special occasions, one day you might just have a really bad episode and you may end up regretting it for a long time.
 
randust16 said:
I've smoked marijuana about 17 times. The last 3 or 4 times i've done it, i;ve been getting worse and worse effects. Last night was the worst of all;

Strange, undescribable visions popped into my head. I could not get rid of one in particular which was especially strange. I started hearing that ice cream truck music along with this vision. At first, it was all really interesting, but then for some reason i started feeling scared. My heart was beating really fast, so this made me freak out and i started having a panic attack. I thought my heart was going to explode and i was having all kinds of visions of my heart blowing up into peices. i tried telling my boyfriend that i thought my heart was going to blow up, but the words came out all jumbled up. He tried to calm me down, and then i remember just lying on the bed and my heart really did seem to explode. I floated up out of my body. I was dead. And i was looking down on my body, and there was blood everywhere because my heart had exploded out of my chest. People were hovering around my body and saying i was the first person ever to die from smoking pot.

The second strangest part of all this was that i snapped out of it so suddenly. Something funny came on the TV and as soon as i realized this, i had floated back into my body and come back to life. Then i was laughing hysterically at what was on the TV.

After a couple hours, the effects were mostly worn off, I watched a movie and then went to sleep. I know i shouldn't be surprised by all of this, since i have schizophrenia. The thing that scares me though, is that i will still want to smoke pot even after this terrifying experience. Last night, i told myself i would never smoke it again, but right now im feeling differently about it all, even though it was really scary. I've always been this way with my hallucinations. They can scare the shit out of me when they are happening, but after i calm down from it all, i feel like i want more.
It's like i have some sort of addiction to being "insane"
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haha i remember as a amatuer smoker when i was very young and first started smoking pot i also heard musical tunes in my head, but as i grew older and got bigger with a much higher tolerance, they went away =]
 
i dont have schizophrenia but ive had panic attacks on weed similar to what you desscribed except minus the hallucinations. ive felt like i was dead and had OBE experiences on weed though before.
 
Peachslide said:
i know the feeling of being addicted to wanting to be insane sort of feeling

the first time i did dxm i freaked the fuck out, thought i was dying, but the next morning i thought it was an awesome feeling, how i wish i would have appreciated it and wanted to do it again, and my dxm experiences have all been good overall since then.

but everyone gets bad pot expiereces, don't feel bad to do it again.
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oh geez, dxm? don't forget about the magic thingy, if u take dxm more then 10-30 times, DXM will lose its effects because youre brain adjust's to the dxm it self, making it nearly impossible to achieve those feelings you first felt on those first trips
 
realm said:
^Seriously, i can't say it's dumb to want to smoke weed while you're schizophrenic, but it really is not the best idea. You really should be careful knowing your condition, correct me if im wrong but hasnt weed been proven to bring out certain underlying mental conditions in people? If you're going to continue smoking i'd suggest you do it very rarely, or only on special occasions, one day you might just have a really bad episode and you may end up regretting it for a long time.
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Besides, If you smoke every day, youre highs wont last nearly as long as if u smoke once every 6 months, if u wait like 6 months and then smoke weed, u will be high for like hours, compared to if u smoke pot everyday the effects may last only 20-90 minutes
 
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