Cannabis - Experienced - Analysis of a Panic Attack

[expothead]

I had a nasty panic attack yesterday, which is weird because I haven't had one for a long time and there was nothing extraordinary about yesterday. The upside of it was that i'm pretty sure I understand what caused it.

I did have a busy day that was non-stop from go to woah. The day started with my childs nightmare at 6am, rushing to get kids to school, rushing to pick up parts for work, driving 1.5 hours to a client to fix stuff. Rushing to fix the stuff. Rushing 1.5 hours back home to pick up the kids after school. Speaking to clients on the phone. Picking up more parts and grabbing ingredients for dinner.

Now at this stage it was about 4:30pm, and i've still got to prepare dinner, put together a quote for a client, check emails etc etc but I thought it was time to reward myself with a snifter - which always makes those jobs a little less mundane.

So I vaped a small amount of herb.

Now for some reason, my mind was still running fast planning all the things I gotta do, and after a minute or two, I can feel the stone coming on. But dammit, my mind was trying to fight it! It was as if it felt it couldn't afford to be stoned and needed its wits about it. About now, I realised that this could get ugly and a little shot of adrenaline hits. I start wrestling with my mind, which is trying to remain straight and has developed a fear that it will forget all the things i've got to do.

Shit, shit, shit.

I start reasoning with my mind, trying to convince it those things are not overly important, and not something i'm going to forget anyway. Its no good, and i've just remembered the kids are crumbing schnitzel in the kitchen for me. What if they need to ask me a question? Shit. Will I be able to reply? Perhaps I'll have to say "Daddy needs a minute." Shit.

Fuck me, my hearts going a million miles an hour. Or is it? Breathe calm. Fuck - I hope it doesn't get any stronger. Shit, walk from room to room - try and stay busy. Couldn't handle facing the kids at the moment. Fuck you don't suppose i'd have a heart attack? That would be great for the kids - you idiot!! How was I supposed to know.

Alright, breathe calm. Go hide in the bedroom. Maybe a little meditating might help. No, can't meditate, too hyped. Fuck.

"We're finished".

"OK, i'll be there shortly" Shit. Breathe.

Alright, time to just go with it. Need some.. thing... to... distract... me. Must... stop... thinking... about... responsibilities.......

Ah, look a Boating Manual - perfect.

I flip open the page and start reading about licenses and boating rules - and I start to get in to it. It takes me about 5 minutes, but the anxiety is slowly dissipating.

OK, got it together now. Check my eyes in the bathroom - there red as fuck. I put some visine in and wait a minute or two.

I head in the kitchen, and the paranoia that my kids are gonna think i'm stoned threatens to roll me again. But there not really at that age yet, so its all just in my head.

I go to the sink, and i'm really wasted, and a bit shaky from the little episode. I peel the potatoes and carrots in relative silence, and chuck 'em in the oven.

I let out a sigh, and feel OK. That is until the wife gets home. But that's another story...

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[October]

I understand how you feel.

I used to be a big pothead. Big...lol

I most recently used 6 months ago (after not smoking for many years). And I had the most horrible anxiety afterwards. It was NOT a good experience AT ALL. And I had never had a prob with herb b4 this, it had just always made me relaxed and sleepy. I had to take some Xanax to come down from this, and I had never heard of having anxiety, other than paranoia from herb before, so I was really freaking out. I don't know if xanax is recommended with pot usage, so I'm not pushing that idea, just saying what I did. (and I'm perscribed it, and don't abuse it, as I need it..lol)

So, don't know if that helps any at all. I know I plan to smoke in the next few weeks. But will have appropriate supervision for my kiddos, and not be on my own (I wan't last time, but there were still several factors that made me overly anxious)

I feel for you.

Hope the wife wasn't too bad... (i'm a wife... hubby wasn't too happy about herb usage, but, since done with his brother and his wife, wasn't too upset. he got over it quickly.)

And sorry for any grammatical errors, I've had several drinks... lol

 

[nachosmith]

im totally with you . . .

i have had many panic attacks and it feels like your going to die ! its scary as hell and im only 16

but panic attacks cant actually kill you or do any harm to you . . . all i do is just forget i am getting one and it goes away . . . or think about a really hot girl you would like to tap

 

[Jeromo]

Hello everybody ! Im 18 years old, I started smoking pot 2 years ago, it was so awesome. Me and my buddies were smoking it every weekend and the whole summer wacations. I was diagnossed with depression and i got subscribed with antidepressives (cipralex). I got back to normal and after a year i stopped taking them. Around march 2009 i had a pannic attack and i ened in the hospital. I was diagnosed again with depression and got subscribed with salypax (prozac variant) and im still having anxiety dissorders.

I remember when we started smoking after every joint i feel relaxed, having the most beautifull thoughts.It was cool. But since that day that i had that pannic attack there wasnt a single day that i wasnt anxious or having a panic attack. (without smoking pot).