More specifically, I'm wondering about whether you can almost completely hallucinate for one to two days while high on meth and after not having slept for five then six days.
Long story short I spent five days awake smoking, and railing meth. By day five everyone i was hanging out with were doing "weird" things. I know paranoia is common and while I'm sure some or a lot of it was just me seeing patterns from normal behavior BUT I know I was fully hallucinating when for about sixteen hours everyone in the house was cooperating and leading me through a string of odd tasks to prepare me for my brother (who was locked in jail at the time) to come and do something (I say something because they never said what he was going to do once he arrived) Then at the climax of my trip I watched each of them one by one leave the house then return after about 15 minutes each, I looked outside to see where they were going and they all went one block up sat in the backseat of a black SUV then got out and walked back. There were about seven or eight people there by the way. After watching that I flipped out called one of them a cop and got out of there as quickly as I could... Not my proudest moment flipping out on my friends like that but yeah.. Anyway then I stayed clean for a couple months after and while for the first week I thought it all actually happened i was quick once I had a clear head to see what actually happened. I hallucinated for two days. And while I didn't get into all the details (as there are too many to list) I had whole conversations with people and I am 100% sure that none of what I heard them say was actually what they said, because what I thought they said was too ridiculous in hindsight. Also I had not only auditory hallucinations, but visual also. Again not proud of this but at one point I actually looked out the window and saw my brother's easily identifiable truck sitting in their front long then drive away (again my brother was in jail so that is impossible).
To close I am wondering first if this sort of ongoing hallucination is normal given the circumstances, and also was it the constant meth smoking or the sleep deprivation? I believe it is a combination but I just want to know if I should avoid prolonged meth use (I know of course that should be avoided but you know what I mean) or if it would be okay if I just avoid severe sleep deprivation. Also something I believe had an effect was that I do have a mental condition, specifically paranoid schizophrenia with psychotic tenancies. Although the name is scarier than the condition, I very rarely have any hallucinations while I'm clean (however I have delusions of everyone around me plotting against me constantly even while clean) so I'm also curious if this was something specific to people with my condition, or similar. I haven't talked to anyone that was there since then and I don't plan to do to unrelated events, I have smoked a lot since then as that was either my first or second time using and was long ago now (long as in a little over a year) but I have only stayed up four days max since then and never do as much as I did that time (It was one of my first times using and I did a little over a half ounce total, and we only did it in a circle of three or four each few hours as many would often get caught in a flail at some point or another, also they only smoked so I was the only one doing lines and smoking since it was mine) Anyway i tried to keep that short but it is a very crazy story but I'm clean right now so please don't get this confused with a crazy post while flailing, all of this is exactly as I remember with my now clear mind. Anyway to recap Is that normal given the circumstances, is it rare and more specific because of my condition or is it a semi-common occurrence, and what was the largest cause or was it a perfect storm of my chemicals, with meths chemicals, and just enough sleep deprivation to set my mind into full blown fantasy mode for two days?
Thank you for staying and reading all of that, and thank you again if you have any comments, answers, or questions yourself any outside perspective will help as I don't tell anyone about this for obvious reasons.
P.S in case you're wondering about how much I did myself with the lines I think it was around 10 to 15 one inch lines total for the whole time.
P.P.S It just occurred to me that that sounds like a real lot, is it? I know it's a lot because I have connections for about one third street price and I purposely got what I thought to be a large amount but now i usually do at most an eight ball a night and not for as many days, and that's the most I'm known to do.
Long story short I spent five days awake smoking, and railing meth. By day five everyone i was hanging out with were doing "weird" things. I know paranoia is common and while I'm sure some or a lot of it was just me seeing patterns from normal behavior BUT I know I was fully hallucinating when for about sixteen hours everyone in the house was cooperating and leading me through a string of odd tasks to prepare me for my brother (who was locked in jail at the time) to come and do something (I say something because they never said what he was going to do once he arrived) Then at the climax of my trip I watched each of them one by one leave the house then return after about 15 minutes each, I looked outside to see where they were going and they all went one block up sat in the backseat of a black SUV then got out and walked back. There were about seven or eight people there by the way. After watching that I flipped out called one of them a cop and got out of there as quickly as I could... Not my proudest moment flipping out on my friends like that but yeah.. Anyway then I stayed clean for a couple months after and while for the first week I thought it all actually happened i was quick once I had a clear head to see what actually happened. I hallucinated for two days. And while I didn't get into all the details (as there are too many to list) I had whole conversations with people and I am 100% sure that none of what I heard them say was actually what they said, because what I thought they said was too ridiculous in hindsight. Also I had not only auditory hallucinations, but visual also. Again not proud of this but at one point I actually looked out the window and saw my brother's easily identifiable truck sitting in their front long then drive away (again my brother was in jail so that is impossible).
To close I am wondering first if this sort of ongoing hallucination is normal given the circumstances, and also was it the constant meth smoking or the sleep deprivation? I believe it is a combination but I just want to know if I should avoid prolonged meth use (I know of course that should be avoided but you know what I mean) or if it would be okay if I just avoid severe sleep deprivation. Also something I believe had an effect was that I do have a mental condition, specifically paranoid schizophrenia with psychotic tenancies. Although the name is scarier than the condition, I very rarely have any hallucinations while I'm clean (however I have delusions of everyone around me plotting against me constantly even while clean) so I'm also curious if this was something specific to people with my condition, or similar. I haven't talked to anyone that was there since then and I don't plan to do to unrelated events, I have smoked a lot since then as that was either my first or second time using and was long ago now (long as in a little over a year) but I have only stayed up four days max since then and never do as much as I did that time (It was one of my first times using and I did a little over a half ounce total, and we only did it in a circle of three or four each few hours as many would often get caught in a flail at some point or another, also they only smoked so I was the only one doing lines and smoking since it was mine) Anyway i tried to keep that short but it is a very crazy story but I'm clean right now so please don't get this confused with a crazy post while flailing, all of this is exactly as I remember with my now clear mind. Anyway to recap Is that normal given the circumstances, is it rare and more specific because of my condition or is it a semi-common occurrence, and what was the largest cause or was it a perfect storm of my chemicals, with meths chemicals, and just enough sleep deprivation to set my mind into full blown fantasy mode for two days?
Thank you for staying and reading all of that, and thank you again if you have any comments, answers, or questions yourself any outside perspective will help as I don't tell anyone about this for obvious reasons.
P.S in case you're wondering about how much I did myself with the lines I think it was around 10 to 15 one inch lines total for the whole time.
P.P.S It just occurred to me that that sounds like a real lot, is it? I know it's a lot because I have connections for about one third street price and I purposely got what I thought to be a large amount but now i usually do at most an eight ball a night and not for as many days, and that's the most I'm known to do.
