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Can you control your drug use?

Personally I know I don't have any control. I haven't touched a drink or opiate or stim in 37 days, but it still has a firm grasp over my mind. Hell, the fact that I know how many days its been since my last high tells the whole story.

The only thing stopping me is that i don't have ready access...i have to really put in a good deal of work to find my DoC's.
 
all game depends on one's mind if he wana over surely he can people can even give up opiate drugs some can give up hash or heroins use as well but somebody's push and care really matters God Bless
 
I am completely and utterly addicted to crystal meth. Anything else i can pretty much control.

I havent done meth for 2 years and i have wanted to every day.
 
I am totally in control - for now. But then again I have had about 100 years worth of misfortune and bad luck within ten or fifteen years and I coped without drugs, so no matter what else happens I can probably deal with it. I mean there is very little else that can go wrong and things are slightly looking up (and hey! the future looks brighter than ever!). I reason that most people who have serious abuse problems never had any major health or life issues in their past before that point or very little, but that's just a theory of mine based on my observations of people I know. Hence it's a very bad coping mechanisms. It can be a good coping mechanism don't get me wrong, but once you end up psychologically dependent on them it's seldom good.
 
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I don't have any problem with it.
Haven't been using for more then 6 months because of random tests at work.
I've had it the entire time just not used it even when I know I could get away with it at work.
( They put up a sign so could just turn around and go home ).

So I would say that I have enough self-control
 
Renz Envy said:
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Holy shit, that'd be torturous. I'd have that coke gone pretty damn quick (regardless of amount).

As someone above mentioned - it's the difficulty in trying to get ahold of amphets that makes it 'easier' to stop using them. For the past year I've had a stash of amphetamine every single month (60 30mg IR adderalls + coke... 8 balls, a couple a month). They use to last through the month (maybe once, haha) and now they're gone in a couple weeks - 3 tops. It's impossible to get any more (and I live BLOCKS from a college campus 8(), so at that point, I go for the cocaine. An eight ball will last me 3 days TOPS, 2 days realistically.

Currently money is my other barrier - that'll all go to dilaudid. Methadone maybe.

I have 'no' control.
 
Im with renz. Mostly the money or lack of money i have on me acts as the control for me.

Thats why when i had a steady connect for suboxone, could get it for cheap and also get multiple doses off one pill...i fell into a habit. I feel that im lucky that i dont have a bunch of money all the time for drugs like opana. I dunno if i could control myself unfortunately. :\
 
I think so. Every few months my alcohol use gets out of control, but when I use other drugs (cannabis, hallucinogens), its fairly in control and I am functional and productive at work and life.
 
no way, i was addicted to world of warcraft for 5 years, staying up all night, no sleep, minimal food, etc. so i have a very addictive personality.

i'm able to moderate it a bit, but thats just in order to keep tolerance low / have the best high
 
I have been on suboxone since 2004...I don't know when I will if ever, get off of it. I am on 2 mg and can't get under that. I just ran into alot of Neurontin and from my reading I could use that to get off it. I would have to take some time off work tho, cuz stuff makes me loopy physically. I am also prescribed Concerta, and sometimes I do really well with my script, and other times not so much. I also am prescribed Ativan, makes me awful sleepy, but I take one every night anyway...so I am physically and mentally addicted.
 
Can you limit your usage while you have a big stash??

May belong in BDD, not sure.. But basically I am relatively new to opiates, figured out how much I liked them after a few minor injuries and was handed some vikes (over the last few years, but would never get or do more than a bottle of 15-30 at a time). I have since found a perc (10/325) connection and can get them at a pretty darn good price.

Issue is that I have to buy them in quantity, not just 10 or 20 etc. -- I started at just 1 pill to get me going and through the last 3 weeks (with multiple day breaks throughout) have worked my way up to 2 to get that same feeling. I am VERY conscience of addiction and more importantly w/d being that I have a very demanding job and a family to take care of.

In a perfect world i'd be able to grab 50 of them and just use them in recreational settings, weekends, certain events etc. However the last few times I have found myself going home after work...knowing I have a bunch and then I end up taking 2-3 in the evenings while relaxing at home. I have never taken a pill before about 2pm (this was the earliest bc I was out at an event) and never taken more than 5 in a whole day (did this twice, but in all honesty, 3 is about where i stop).


Anyway, just wanted to see how many of you can limit your usage when you have it on hand. I know some of you are like me, have families, good jobs, but enjoy some opiate usage here n' there. I'd like to hear some feedback..

Thanks
 
it's tough to limit yourself; either get a friend/wife to hold on to them and distribute them to you or seriously set some limits and if you can't stick to them then don't use them at all. It is very easy to start rationalize that you need to use them twice a week, then 4 times a week, then just once day, then morning and night only, then all day and before you know it you are completely dependent.

be careful before you go down this route, even those of us who know/knew better still had it happen. I can limit my usage now, but only after i have what i consider to be enough in the first place. After that i don't have cravings but if i try to take half of what i want i will go crazy with the craving for more.
 
I had to go through the taking too many phase to be at a 0 pain level before I figured out being w/o meds' for even one day is not worth rolling through a script" to be in no pain along with some euphoria "half the time"
 
Not a chance in hell. If i've got it, it's gone. Same with money, it just burns a hole in my pocket.
 
RobotRipping said:
it's tough to limit yourself; either get a friend/wife to hold on to them and distribute them to you or seriously set some limits and if you can't stick to them then don't use them at all. It is very easy to start rationalize that you need to use them twice a week, then 4 times a week, then just once day, then morning and night only, then all day and before you know it you are completely dependent.

be careful before you go down this route, even those of us who know/knew better still had it happen. I can limit my usage now, but only after i have what i consider to be enough in the first place. After that i don't have cravings but if i try to take half of what i want i will go crazy with the craving for more.
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Yea, nobody knows. I prefer to keep it that way so as long as I keep it recreational.

It's a toughy lol
 
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