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Can you control your drug use?

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Are you able to control your drug use or are you physically and/or mentally addicted?
 
For the most part. I constantly smoke cannabis, and a lot of people would say I am addicted, but that is not necessarily the case. I have a very hard time with depression and anger, and I would much rather smoke and be happy, than be sober and upset. Being unhappy when you don't need to be is just plain nonsense in my opinion.
 
If I'm being honest, I have a bit of a problem controlling my use of opioids. All other drugs, I use in moderation, even crack or amphetamines. But heroin, I just love too much.
 
I think we already have a thread similar to this one, but I'm going to leave this one open until I find it...

To answer the question... Yes, I think that I can control my drug use. No one believes me because opiates are my drug of choice right now, but I think that you and only you can truly know whether or not you have a problem. In your heart of hearts, you'll know the answer, and I am confident that at this point in time everything is straight. I'm neither physically dependent nor mentally addicted. But further down the road, eh, we'll just have to wait and see...

EDIT: I would have to say that my love affair with amphetamines may have been a bit too much; I'm not sure that I was really in control of the situation. I've kicked them, but looking back now... *cringe*
 
I had a problem myself with Cannabis. I got bad depersonalization and was using it to forget. I got busted and at that point I sort of realized I was going to have to quit for a while due to legal reasons and if I ever come back, I'll have to have control over it. Its strange too because (what are considered) addictive drugs don't appeal to me at all.
 
Over three years of drug use, (minus weed and alcohol and shit like vicodin and percocet) which i understand really isnt a long time i have been able to keep my drug use under control but recently i have been getting in a little trouble with suboxone but not that bad. Maybe im mentally addicted to marijuana i dunno.
 
I can't say that I can control my drug use cos I know if I have the cash then I know I am gonna go score without a doubt.
 
For me it definitely depends on the circumstances surrounding me at the time.
I can shoot dope/blaze rocks constantly up to a certain known point of a "time I have to stop" for and not have a problem with it.
I never really got bad withdrawals when I was using also so it kinda helped.
When I did have the drugs, I could not control how much I was putting in my body.. Even if I was already
blowed the fuck back from some dope, I'd still be shooting more, then end up puking my brains out.
So in that sense, I was not able to control a DAMN thing lmao. :D
 
maxalfie said:
I can't say that I can control my drug use cos I know if I have the cash then I know I am gonna go score without a doubt.
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Haha exactly the same with thust.Im lucky i havnt had much money to throw around since i really started getting into things. But i just got a new job thats going to be bringing in some nice cashflow so we will see how that goes. :\
 
simple answer no..i've been able to take a few days off here and there but it's usually because i have no other option or because my tolerance is making life expensive. but with everything i've done i've done habitually. even my pot habit was kinda outta control for a bit lol not like my opioid habit but almost as expensive, i shit you not. anyway ya it would be nice to have that ability to take it or leave it..oddly enough i have that with cigarettes, have been smoking since i was 11, quit abruptly forno reason one day when i was 19 and didn't withdrawal at all...seems more like some odd paradoxical thing than me controlling the habit though..
 
I can control it but when it's there in front of me I always have the urge. I've had a bundle before that I refused to do until after I had taken care of everything I needed to do, and much to my boyfriend's dismay, until after we had gone and had a very long birthday dinner with my entire family.
 
I've dabbled in just about every type of pharmaceutical, smoked weed for many years, took LSD & mushrooms a few times, smoked cigarettes & drank alcohol on and off most my adult life. I was truely a recreational user, I was never addicted to any of them. There were times I would go months or years, without using or even the desire to use any of them. The only exception would be for two drugs...caffiene & hydrocodone. I developed my hydrocodone habit about 4 years ago. It's the only opioid I really enjoy. I CWE large batches (120 of the 10/325 pills) and usually that's gone in less than a month. I am a high functioning addict though (pun intended). I work as an engineer for a major electronics comapny, rarely miss work, and always perform well on reviews. And even though my pills are prescribed for my cluster headaches, I don't kid myself, I know I'm addicted. I can't go more than a day before WD symptoms kick in (I really hate the RLS).
 
Do you remember when drugs took over your life?

I've been thinking about this tonight, and I've come up with a couple of hypotheses:

1.) Drugs took over my life long before they became a financial burden - when they were both cheap and I had lots of money (ages 18-25). This hypothesis comes mainly from an experience I will never forget: when I was 18, I left for college far, far away. I brought with me only 50 bars because I didn't realize how physically addicted I was to them, and I thought that 50 was a shitload. They lasted three weeks, and only then did I realize how much of an integral role they played in my life when I went through the WORST and most PROTRACTED withdrawals I have ever experienced. My whole personality changed. I had to fight my body and mind to go to class every day for months, and even after that all I could think about was "I need a bar" but I was too closed off socially to find any due to outrageous anxiety.

2.) Drugs took over my life when I graduated with my MBA in 2008 - right after the banks crashed. Before then, I had things going on - overseas adventures, school, internships, and a very lucrative hobby/business that made money no object for a few years. When reality hit that I had graduated and there were no more awesome jobs just waiting for me, I found it very difficult to get satisfaction out of anything except for drugs. Only now, instead of being able to buy out dealers, I was working menial jobs just to get the next days meds.

So it's hard for me to say. Maybe they most noticeably took over in 2008 at age 25, but then again maybe they have been in control since I was 18.

What about you?
 
I would say 3 years ago. It was gradual. I didn't realize it until it was too late.

Or maybe it was just now, this past year. I have lost everything- and realized they are lost. I will never love (not like that) again. I will never FEEL again - and want to live and dream like I used to.

Since you were 18? That'd be just a little younger than I was when I just started my quest into the world of opiates. I am now 26 (in October ;))

Sad but very real thread.
 
Probably about 1 year ago exactly, when I got my GBL, which I was using 6 days a week within a week of getting it...then came a nice supply of discounted o-desmethyltramadol, and 10g of 4-meo-pcp...the last few months of 2010 are a drug-tastic blur to me. In the end all I got out of it was lasting GI problems and a psychological dependency on GABAergics I have no intention of getting rid of.
 
woamotive said:
Since you were 18? That'd be just a little younger than I was when I just started my quest into the world of opiates. I am now 26 (in October ;))

Sad but very real thread.
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What's even sadder is I may have overshot the mark by saying 18. When I was 17, I took my first Vicodin, and that is a feeling I may have been trying to chase ever since - although not necessarily as full blown a habit as it is now (opiates). But my main killer is benzos. I don't even like them by themselves, but I have to have them :(.
 
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