Hey all, it has been close to a year and a half when I created this thread.
I initially posted it in the ADD discussion because I truly wanted to discuss the more clinical side of tramadol and how its nasty pathways can induce hypomania or even full bown mania on some users. Other have reported this effect and since if you search for "tramadol hypomania" in Google, this thread comes up as a first result, I thought I should update this thread as part of improving the dialogue between drugs and users and to emphasize responsibility with any kind of drug you use.
Tramadol no longer gives me that sublime AD effect. Unfortunately I am still on it and initial doses of 400mgs (empty stomach, single dose) only wake me up. If I take 500mgs I can get a little of that AD effect but with such a dose I am risking a seizure (even with 400mgs I am risking a seizure).
I have absolute confidence tramadol has made me hypomanic and even full blown manic. I have edited out some of the stuff I have done on tramadol, but rest assured it is some crazy stuff.
All the above effects I have had in my life without taking tramadol too; however, tramadol has amplified them so much it has made me do stuff I never thought I would do. I thought of it initially as the perfect drug; you know those little annoying things in your daily life like having an argument with your girlfriend? Well, imagine if those little things no longer upsetted you and you felt cheerful and wanting to fix those things. Truly a miracle drug at the beginning. I wanted to hug people and listen to them; I have given gifts to people without any other reason other than "because I like them" even though they were almost strangers. It has made me want to take over the world and part of this is what has earned me a good income.
I have learned to love and hate tramadol. Mind you I don't blame anyone nor do I blame tramadol; I only blame myself for my current state and take full responsibility for my actions. Tramadol only did what it was supposed to do when I was prescribed the drug many moons ago, but I noticed the side effect of being an AD close to what 100mgs of MDMA could do, and I have taken MDMA in a variety of doses including a possible 1 gram dose (reported by my friend who was a drug dealer. That dose fucked me up beyond recognition).
I have lied to everyone to get tramadol. I am a good actor (I should have considered this career only that I am ugly as fuck LOL) and on tramadol I am an even better actor. I have gotten up to 300 pills in a single shopping session at pharmacies where I could get it without a prescription if I convinced the pharmacist I was in pain (the amount of bullshit I have told them makes me feel guilty). Unfortunately, I cannot NOT have tramadol. When I go shopping it is for a real need because tramadol withdrawals are f***cking AWFUL. Please, anyone reading my lines, do not become dependent on this drug. I was hooked on another nasty drug some years ago and its withdrawal (which can cause seizures) was a walk in the park compared to tramadol withdrawal.
I feel updating this thread will give the FDA and other regulating agencies more evidence to further regulate tramadol. However, by updating this thread I can also help others contemplating the long term use of tramadol or on the edge of becoming physically addicted to it. Being on tramadol is like having a chemical set of cuffs; this same description was used by someone on a Youtube video covering heroin and methadone and that person hooked on methadone used that same description. That's how bad the abuse of tramadol can become.
By all means, I weighted the pros and cons of tramadol and knew what I was getting into. This is not a case of "oh my doctor didn't warn me and know I am f**cked". Due to personal reasons I decided to continue with tramadol as it helped me with some things I had in my life. Was it thanks to tramadol? Well, all tramadol has done is amplify my personality and motivation. It has made me a good man and a bad man, but I was already a good man and a bad man (as much as I hate that dark side of me and try to tame it). I am fairly confident I am bipolar, but I rather not be diagnosed as that would mean that they would cut my tramadol prescription (I have a prescription but also go pharmacy shopping to satisfy my daily doses). I also get a very generous amount of other drugs I don't use and I have built a massive collection of drugs such as methylphenidate and clonazepam which I plan to use for my withdrawal (I also have clonidine, escilatropam, alprazolam, trazodone, pregabalin and much more). I plan to get off tramadol whenever I consider it convenient, but withdrawing means at least 2 weeks of no activity whatsoever and at least another month of feeling suicidal and depressed.
Tramadol no longer gives me the AD effect. It makes me suicidal and hostile i.e. the other dark side of the bipolar spectrum. Before, I would feel like a god on tramadol, nowadays I feel suicidal, hostile. The only effect left is stimulation and grandiosity. I have allowed tramadol to carve itself into my life, so now I CANNOT stop its (ab)use.
I also plan on seeing a mental health specialist about my bipolar disorder. I am not doing it because then my tramadol prescription would be cut and I cannot afford that at the moment. I have learned to tame those dark feelings I get on tramadol and I try to remain optimistic, but I just don't get any elevated positive anymore despite the fact I am easily doubling the dose I was taking when I started this thread 1 1/2 years ago.
I would rather remain anonymous as my username implies (I did spell it like that on purpose). There are many users of tramadol who you would not suspect they are hooked to this chemical cuff. They are mothers, businessmen, doctors, researchers, professors. I have read so many stories about tramadol addiction, it's crazy. I would however prefer tramadol was left regulated as it is. Tramadol is not an evil drug per se; it's simply a drug that will do what it is supposed to do and in a % of users it will make them feel so much better in terms of their mood and motivation. However, many of those % of users will seek tramadol through other means and get their tolerance up to a point they will have to lie to their wives, husbands, doctors, parents, brothers, friends and everyone around them. I know this because this is exactly my case.
If you are bipolar, please be careful with this drug. If you are not bipolar, still be careful about this drug. Be aware that the sublime feeling it can give you with 200mgs and a strong cup of coffee will literally grab you by the balls in a year's time or even less. Do not think of this drug as a drug for eternity; tramadol will carve itself into your life to the point that hilariously-huge doses that risk a seizure will only make you feel like you felt when you were sober, and if you dare stop taking tramadol, you will experience what real pain and suffering is. I have read of people describing the withdrawal as worse than heroin, and, while I have tried heroin but never been hooked, I can guarantee you the demons in your head will pop out and royally f*ck you up (plus all the physical effects of the withdrawal). I knew what I was getting into, but reading the reports of the gross withdrawal of tramadol while I was on tramadol and feeling sublime made me not fully consider the warnings. You see, I felt like a god on tramadol; there's no other way to describe it. If I had known exactly what my stage would be some 2 years later I would have perhaps consider other treatments or be sober. I don't even f*cking remember what it was feeling sober.
When I posted this thread I really meant to get some discussion on the more-advanced pharmaceutical side of tramadol, but I can understand why the thread was moved seeing the replies given. I came across this thread today because when I woke up and while starting to withdraw from tramadol as I hadn't taken my dose, I was crying as I was thinking of the people who would be affected by me committing suicide. I know I would kill the soul of my parents and my brothers, and that's too much too handle. But I feel there's no other way out. I try to be optimistic, but tramadol puts me down. And I cannot stop taking tramadol because then I will be at a real risk of committing suicide.
I cannot reiterate enough to all of you considering tramadol for the long term, please be CAREFUL and think twice and of other options. I did try other options but nothing made me feel as good and "normal" as tramadol did. If you are going through this and really considering tramadol as your DOC for long term, please be aware that those AD effects will fade away after months of use or abuse, and you will be left in a very dark side of your life.
Take care everyone and God (the real God) bless you all.