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Heroin Can heroin do this to you?? What happened?

bdomihizayka

bdomihizayka

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Am I experiencing PAWS? I have the worst depression/ blah feeling ever experienced. i had anxiety and OCD all my life, but never depressed, not like this. I used heroin about every other day, 3 bags a day lets say for 2 weeks..... I haven't felt the same since... just no interest in anything.... I had no bad physical withdrawals..... but the depression is absolutely bonecrushing. It's been 3 days since I used, and used some morphine last night to see if it was an opiate withdrawal problem, and well the morphine really did nothing for me.... 100mgs; i wasnt looking to get high, but see if the symptoms subsided somewhat, which they didn't

I used painkillers before this stint, never so frequently and never to this degree, maybe 3-4 times a month.... and never had depression symptoms....

Is it possible heroin threw me into a depression?
 
I think this is exactly what an opiate "hangover" feels like. Its a lot more subtle except when you have dosed way too high. Stay away from opiates or the time will come and you will use every day to not feel depressed.
 
so how long will i have to wait until this depression lifts? its absolutely unbearable. i will never use again, not another opiate....ever..... i am feeling so low... so how long until i feel normalish again after my little stint?
 
For a habit of two weeks. You will get significantly better day after day. Rough estimate, maybe a week maybe more. As the others mentioned, stay away. This is just a small taste of what opioid withdrawal feels like.
 
You're just going to have to rough it out... sitting around feeling sorry for yourself is not going to help. You'll be surprised how fast you get back to normal if you go out of your way to do positive things that make you happy. One day you'll wake up and just feel better.. the depression aspect can persist a long time because your mind makes it that way. You weren't using long enough to develop a serious habit.. so it's just a mental hiccup at this point. Get your mind off it and you'll be right as rain.
 
You haven't been using for very long at all. Like others have said, I would expect you to be over this in the next week or so if you don't use. I know that feels like an eternity right now, but if you can get passed it, you're golden. Don't get caught in a cycle for years and years friend, it's not worth it.
 
Thank you everyone whom replied..... What can a doctor do for me? Give me antidepressants or something? i was never a depressed person before this stupid binge.... something is different though in my head.... I feel no happiness, no endorphones i guess....
 
I think the best thing to do would be exercise, eat well and try and keep busy. I personally don't recommend anti depressants but that's just an opinion.
 
Yes it can do that to you. Give it time and you will feel back to normal after you have given yourself time.

This is why I relapsed after having three weeks clean after a short stint when I first began, and I ended up using for another 9+ months.
 
That is the nature of depression. While experiencing it, you feel as though you will never be happy again. That is worse to me than being depressed itself. Your brain will trick you into thinking this because it wants more immediate gratification to balance out the chemicals to normal. However, over time, your receptor count will dwindle, your endorphin production will resume, until natural balance is reached. At this point, you feel just fine and even think "how could I ever have needed this to be happy?"
 
Bomb319 said:
That is the nature of depression. While experiencing it, you feel as though you will never be happy again. That is worse to me than being depressed itself. Your brain will trick you into thinking this because it wants more immediate gratification to balance out the chemicals to normal. However, over time, your receptor count will dwindle, your endorphin production will resume, until natural balance is reached. At this point, you feel just fine and even think "how could I ever have needed this to be happy?"
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Very true, well said.
 
Yes it's likely withdrawal. Withdrawal usually starts with the usual kicks, sweats, puking, big pupils, and subsides to anxiety and sweats/insomnia, then to depression last. So since you didn't really get fully addicted, you luckily skip first 2 stages and go to the last of depression. Likely will be over within a week or two max, you didn't use long so you won't feel shitty long


Good luck. Make sure not to do more opiates, if you do anytime soon you will likely feel this all over again the next day. Give it at least a month or two, and if you wanna be safe, never again.
 
I came ITT to tell you it probably was. But there's not much I can add except take what you're feeling and multiply it by 10. Include: body aches, runny nose, cold sweats, nausea, etc. and that's what you'll have if you continue using everyday. I wish I coulda experienced some kind of withdrawal before I got full blown addicted. It would've probably prevented my use of it.
 
Yeah, depression sucks... Might I suggest a little comfort from the opposite sex? Or whatever the sex, if that's what your into. A good screw session always helps me when I'm feeling down... Hah. You could use the natural endorphins created by sex. You'll get the same lift from exercising or eating sweet food.. But do not just sit in front of the TV moping, man. Look at yourself in the mirror, clench your jaw, and tell yourself your stronger than this shit and you will get through it.

I can't tell you how many times during bad kicks I've just looked at myself and said "Quit being such a fucking pussy!" I even carved it into my nightstand during my last stay at detox so future addicts can go in and see it. Sometimes, you just need to man up.
 
Best thing u can do is force yourself to engage in a physical and /or social activity you would normally enjoy; working out, playing a sport, seeing a movie, bowling, whatever....

A large part of what ur feeling is, as they say, "just mental"---meaning that if ur a 3 out of 10 on the depression scale purely from the withdrawl, your probably making yoUrself feel like a 6 or 7 out of 10 b/c your concentrating on how bad you feel, how miserable you are, how lethargic, etc....but if you force yourself into an activity, you will quickly forget about all that and you will be okay for a few hours. Keep it up every day, and then one morning in a week or so you'll be totallly normal again
 
exercise and marijuana help me greatly after an opiate binge.

Its strange that the morphine didnt help you at all though. so maybe its something else.
 
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