vampireslayer
Greenlighter
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- Nov 13, 2014
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I smoke cannabis quite a lot, I get cocaine given to me maybe twice a week. I used to take amphetamines regularly but that only went on for a month. If I go to a rave I'll take MDMA. I like magic mushrooms. Other than that I don't take many drugs. I feel as though they have effected me in good and bad ways. MDMA just cured my anxiety, since the first use my anxiety is gone, no other medication has ever done that. Weed helps me sleep, I don't really like the high that much. I prefer uppers. Magic mushrooms are amazing, they really clear your mind and I've never had as much fun as I've had tripping on shrooms or dancing all night on mdma. The amphetamine stopped me feeling tired 24/7 but wasn't sustainable so since I've been off it my energy has gone back to being non existent, amphetamine is evil. Anyway, what my question is: Would these drugs have permanently changed my brain from only some a few times(mushrooms, mdma) or not using often(cocaine) or using regularly to help me sleep(weed) or the short addiction(the amphetamine binge I went on for barely a month)? I feel like a completely different person I am anxiety free and have no fears but at the same time I'm numb I cannot feel and I don't think anything could upset me or make me "happy".. I'm just in this state that may be contentment but to me it feels like emptiness and numbness, no motivation or empathy. I could probably stab someone with a straight face and no regret. Am I going crazy?
