After multiple failed trials of psych meds for treatment-resistant dep/OCD, a doc in rehab prescribed me Prozac + Zyprexa. I was only on the Zyprexa for 6 months, and while it worked effectively for anxiety, I ditched it because of the emotional blunting. So I've been 2 years AP-free, and I'm pretty positive that's where my persistent low-pleausure baseline/anhedonia comes from. I never had it before I hit my 20s and was medicated. It's pretty fucking discouraging to read studies on AP-induced brain shrinkage and numerous anecdotal reports online that state APs cause apathy, avolition and anhedonia even after cessation. I've already scoured sites like /r/nootropics and Longecity for answers and it's pretty fruitless. Has anyone been on antipsychotics long-term, came off and still feel like who they used to be? It's been 2 years and I still refuse to accept the fact that this is the new normal, and I really hope somewhere down the line I eventually recover.