So I am flying to CA in two days. My family paid my nephew's education money to send me to this program. It's costing 24K.........they put 14K to get me there ASAP. They said its hard to know that I am losing myself and my life when I have so potential. They said it hurts so much to see me losing weight and look like I am dying. They said they won't witness my death. They said if I agree to go, I can do whatever I want after that as long as I am okay. I am going there for prescription drug addiction, relationship addiction and an eating disorder which I kept a good secret for over 2 years now. Now that I am going through this break up, I weigh 75 pounds. I would do anything to hear Jeff's voice and let me know that I will be okay. I miss him so much, why am I going through so much pain by myself? Baby I am sorry....I couldn't help you or be good to you. I can't help me or be good to myself........I don't want to go away for 10 weeks. I am scared......
You'll be ok, ATL 
rehab is scary and lonely at first. Just focus on you right now. In 10 weeks those 10 weeks will be done with and you will have a clearer head, healthier body and a different perspective.
If you're looking to get clean then this is a HUGE opportunity for you. They say getting clean and putting our lives together is like building a house... first ya gotta clear away the wreckage and debris, then ya build a strong foundation and finally, you piece together the detailed framework.
You say you're scared but I kinda think you're actually courageous.
rehab is scary and lonely at first. Just focus on you right now. In 10 weeks those 10 weeks will be done with and you will have a clearer head, healthier body and a different perspective. If you're looking to get clean then this is a HUGE opportunity for you. They say getting clean and putting our lives together is like building a house... first ya gotta clear away the wreckage and debris, then ya build a strong foundation and finally, you piece together the detailed framework.
You say you're scared but I kinda think you're actually courageous.
