boomhs
Bluelighter
- Joined
- Dec 19, 2010
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I choose to open saying this: My depression is so insanelly hellish without bupe\alcohol\something, at around nighttime come i go insane with pure pain, my tears dried long ago
My situation is unusual. My life is for, reasons, a living hell. I have depression major and circa 4years ago for an exame or smt took subutex. Well, life was good again. I was also an alcoholic (whatever kills the pain) which subu cured. I got my doc to let me on 2mg a day. More and more psychs are using morphne alikes on patients with severe depression. I have been commited before to a ward to take anti-depress IV, fix timings on pills etc... Oh they now administer KETAMINE for hard cases diagnostis of pain. More and more medicine is taking a turn into stronger stuff for depression. Why? Because it's better than a suicide
Subu isn't holding my depression, and the problem is after 4mg it peaks and i'm left still suffering. So i got H, (top #4), I do have resistence from subu (2-4mg not much) but the goddamn H doesn't feel much better! it's hard to IV my veins are bad so i just snort. Heroin also seemed to peak i have no idea how. I have free Bupe and it doesn't cut it...
I need the full H experience once in a while, with subutex alone i'm not managing to stay alive. About Heroin "hitting strong nod bliss" even snorting a bit too much once i felt a mini OD hard breathing dry mouth..
How to get real high, like the Jesse, like trainspotting?? over night would be amazing my nights are very hard....
Please don't reply with moral\clinic advice, my story is way too long and complex, took me to this path and the help i want is here. Ty mates
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0qLGCBueZ34
My situation is unusual. My life is for, reasons, a living hell. I have depression major and circa 4years ago for an exame or smt took subutex. Well, life was good again. I was also an alcoholic (whatever kills the pain) which subu cured. I got my doc to let me on 2mg a day. More and more psychs are using morphne alikes on patients with severe depression. I have been commited before to a ward to take anti-depress IV, fix timings on pills etc... Oh they now administer KETAMINE for hard cases diagnostis of pain. More and more medicine is taking a turn into stronger stuff for depression. Why? Because it's better than a suicide
Subu isn't holding my depression, and the problem is after 4mg it peaks and i'm left still suffering. So i got H, (top #4), I do have resistence from subu (2-4mg not much) but the goddamn H doesn't feel much better! it's hard to IV my veins are bad so i just snort. Heroin also seemed to peak i have no idea how. I have free Bupe and it doesn't cut it...
I need the full H experience once in a while, with subutex alone i'm not managing to stay alive. About Heroin "hitting strong nod bliss" even snorting a bit too much once i felt a mini OD hard breathing dry mouth..
How to get real high, like the Jesse, like trainspotting?? over night would be amazing my nights are very hard....
Please don't reply with moral\clinic advice, my story is way too long and complex, took me to this path and the help i want is here. Ty mates

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0qLGCBueZ34