Bupe bupe,benzos,antihistamine and tramadol

[severin]

hi everyone this is my first post here im all new to the forum.
so going straight to the point im on 8 mg or more sometimes of subutex a day for helping with my heroine addiction,i dont really see the help of those as im pretty much craving for the drug or any kind of drug,in short i just wannna get high no matter what.with bupe on my sistem is impossible to get opiate buzz and nice warmth provided by it ,so in a kind of despair and after some research i am trying this combo,so today i had 16 mg of subutex along with 30mg of diazepam,40 mg of some antihistamine and 500mg of tramadol.i know this is too much trams to take but as an opiate user im used to such high doses,other times i used toingest even higher amounts of tramadol,but with no real effect on me.as for the amounts i describe i took today well..im still waiting for them to work on,to make me feel something nice and warm just like opiates do.thats what i miss and always will,i even told my doc(who prescribed me all this)that my brain ,no matter what is constantly searching for a way to get high and this is stronger than me,i told her i wouldnt mind going on methadone but she sais no,that im ok with subs i just have to be strong,well im not strong as you see,otherwise i wouldnt be taking all this stuff to get me high,nor i would besmoking heroine everytime i can even though it has no effect on me due to the subutex..i need some kind of different approach to my problem dont you think?otherwise ill be constantly looking for a way to get high and will possibly hurt myself with crazy combos,when a single use of a substance such as methadone woulld help me out,at least that s what i think.as for now this is a daily battle on how to get high,it gets me tired ,its even worse thaan when i was using heroine..any advice will be gold to me..

thanks in advance and sorry for long boring post but i needed to explain my thing..take care everyone

 

[weltschmertz]

Good work maan. You tempting seizure Gods and `i cant bread` Gods.
Just dont mix that much diazepam with buprenorphine....and tramadol ...daamn dude just stay alive ))

 

[severin]

subutex

yeah i know im crossing the line a little bit here but as i told you im pretty used to all those substances,it doesnt take the risk for a seizure i know but..
i must add that all this combo did give me a head buzzz,nothing like an opiate buzz but still i was feeling peaks od a great feeling in my body.i even increased the dose a little bit but i did stop by now.now tell me,should i or shouldnt try and convince my doc that i need some kind of help that all this meds arent giving?oh i must add that im taking daily a 100mg of zoloft and 3mg of risperidone,according to my doc these are to meke me master of my thought and will,in short to take the power over my impulsive reactions..it just isnt working but she wont listen......

 

[Robtuse]

now tell me,should i or shouldnt try and convince my doc that i need some kind of help that all this meds arent giving?oh i must add that im taking daily a 100mg of zoloft and 3mg of risperidone,according to my doc these are to meke me master of my thought and will,in short to take the power over my impulsive reactions..it just isnt working but she wont listen......

Is your doc a psychiatrist only? Sounds like she only has experience with the aspects of treating addiction with medication. That's just part of it. You need a good psychiatrist AND psychologist (both trained AODA or similar) and exposure to the option of a 12 step program. If that's a little too overwhelming, I understand (from experience)... definitely get your doc to see through your eyes or see another doc (if that's an option). I dunno if this happens to you but I always think of great things/ways to explain things to my docs but when I meet with them I either can't remember it or can't articulate it. I've found writing shit down really helps. Sounds pretty obvious but I didn't think of it right away...