So, I've been going through some things in my head lately. I call them 'things' because I really haven't tried putting a real name to the exact nature of what is making me feel these wide range of feelings.
The urge to use is strong of late. When i get these urges I do what I need to do to combat them. I call my sponsor. I write. I go to meetings. I exercise. I do what I need to do.
So, I went to a meeting tonight and I was hanging out front with some folks. A dude I never seen around before came up the walkway. He was definitely new. Dude was about 6' 5", awkward in appearance and he was wearing a t-shirt that had the Jack Daniels logo/bottle thingy emblazoned on it.
Three of the females I was chatting with when he came walking up took issue with his shirt. They actually TOLD him to turn it inside out.
I spoke up to them and said that NA doesn't tell people how to dress. I told them that they must be pretty weak if they were going to let a fucking t-shirt cause them distress. They copped an attitude with me and said that it was a matter of respect. I was speechless.
Respect isn't something you tell a person to have. A person either has respect or they don't. How fucking dare they?
How about some open-mindedness? Maybe dude just didn't know any better? He's fucking new to NA, man, its quite fucking clear that he just doesn't know. Maybe dude doesn't have any other clothes? Maybe dude doesn't need some control freak assholes pushing him away from an environment that is supposed to be welcoming.
Man, these people have turned into pussies when they got clean. Either that or their addiction didn't introduce them to harsh circumstances where tolerance to much more serious things was mandatory.
If a fucking t-shirt is gonna fuck with you and, to take it a step further, PUSH SOMEONE NEW BACK TO THE STREETS because you feel uncomfortable looking at his shirt. Who gives a fuck, man?
Fuck this town, man. NA is fucking weird here. I'm tired of it and I'm glad that my lease is almost up so that I can move a few towns over where NA is more understanding and less petty.
Well, I still have money left over from my paycheck. Maybe I'll buy myself a Jack Daniels shirt and wear it to meetings? I'll fight over that shit. Its a matter of basic rights. Go ahead and tell me what I can and cannot wear and see what happens mother fuckers. I haven't been the most spiritual person lately. I would enjoy lacing my boots up again.
Pussy mother fuckers. Its just a fucking shirt, man. Stop killing people by misrepresenting what Narcotics Anonymous is all about.
'The newcomer is the most important person at any meeting because we can only keep what we have by giving it away'
Basic Text 5th Edition page 9
'Each group has but one primary purpose - to carry the message to the addict who still suffers'
Tradition Five
'The message is that an addict, any addict, can stop using drugs, lose the desire to use, and find a new way to live.'
Basic Text 5th Edition page 65
Shit, I could quote a shitload more but that isn't what this is about. Fuck them! I really wanna hurt these assholes. People who get clean and turn into these judgmental, holier-than-thou pieces of shit need to go.
Shit, what if I'm a judgmental, holier-than-thou simply by feeling this way about them?
The urge to use is strong of late. When i get these urges I do what I need to do to combat them. I call my sponsor. I write. I go to meetings. I exercise. I do what I need to do.
So, I went to a meeting tonight and I was hanging out front with some folks. A dude I never seen around before came up the walkway. He was definitely new. Dude was about 6' 5", awkward in appearance and he was wearing a t-shirt that had the Jack Daniels logo/bottle thingy emblazoned on it.
Three of the females I was chatting with when he came walking up took issue with his shirt. They actually TOLD him to turn it inside out.
I spoke up to them and said that NA doesn't tell people how to dress. I told them that they must be pretty weak if they were going to let a fucking t-shirt cause them distress. They copped an attitude with me and said that it was a matter of respect. I was speechless.
Respect isn't something you tell a person to have. A person either has respect or they don't. How fucking dare they?
How about some open-mindedness? Maybe dude just didn't know any better? He's fucking new to NA, man, its quite fucking clear that he just doesn't know. Maybe dude doesn't have any other clothes? Maybe dude doesn't need some control freak assholes pushing him away from an environment that is supposed to be welcoming.
Man, these people have turned into pussies when they got clean. Either that or their addiction didn't introduce them to harsh circumstances where tolerance to much more serious things was mandatory.
If a fucking t-shirt is gonna fuck with you and, to take it a step further, PUSH SOMEONE NEW BACK TO THE STREETS because you feel uncomfortable looking at his shirt. Who gives a fuck, man?
Fuck this town, man. NA is fucking weird here. I'm tired of it and I'm glad that my lease is almost up so that I can move a few towns over where NA is more understanding and less petty.
Well, I still have money left over from my paycheck. Maybe I'll buy myself a Jack Daniels shirt and wear it to meetings? I'll fight over that shit. Its a matter of basic rights. Go ahead and tell me what I can and cannot wear and see what happens mother fuckers. I haven't been the most spiritual person lately. I would enjoy lacing my boots up again.
Pussy mother fuckers. Its just a fucking shirt, man. Stop killing people by misrepresenting what Narcotics Anonymous is all about.
'The newcomer is the most important person at any meeting because we can only keep what we have by giving it away'
Basic Text 5th Edition page 9
'Each group has but one primary purpose - to carry the message to the addict who still suffers'
Tradition Five
'The message is that an addict, any addict, can stop using drugs, lose the desire to use, and find a new way to live.'
Basic Text 5th Edition page 65
Shit, I could quote a shitload more but that isn't what this is about. Fuck them! I really wanna hurt these assholes. People who get clean and turn into these judgmental, holier-than-thou pieces of shit need to go.
Shit, what if I'm a judgmental, holier-than-thou simply by feeling this way about them?
