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Bruised brain and MDMA.. Intelligent opnion needed!!

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Ok so i've been thinking, I suffered a severe concussion, then 7 days later I ate XTC (2 pills) and had a HORRIBLE reaction to it, and ever since i've been anxious, really depressed, extreme insomnia, loss of personality etc.. Which neither symptom I had before that single night and its been 5 months and going strong.

So my question is, due you think that XTC and a bruised brain from a severe concussion (which naturally alters brain chemistry/mechanisms in the brain) could alter the natural chemistry/reaction of using MDMA as well as the brains natural defense against the neurotoxicity and effects of MDMA + adulterants in the pill? Because it seems strange that one roll could fuck me up mentally so bad for so long.
 
your brain was rebuilding itself after its' injury. using whatever was in the ex pills probably messed with this natural process and left you with a bad imprint.

the good news is that the brain is very plastic and that you can probably program yourself back to normal. I've been there and back.....
 
this is such a common question on bl. yes, maybe you did a tiny amount of brain damage but basically youre fine and will recover with abstinesnce from drugs and shit. stop worrying and have some fun.
 
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your brain was rebuilding itself after its' injury. using whatever was in the ex pills probably messed with this natural process and left you with a bad imprint.

the good news is that the brain is very plastic and that you can probably program yourself back to normal. I've been there and back.....
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airspace - I think it really fucked up the process. I never slept for about 3 weeks, give or take a few 2 hour naps here and there. Also, I never ate, basically starved myself for about a month and lost 20 lbs, and never let my brain rest i.e. was under EXTREME stress (ALOT of cortisol release, PTSD style symptoms) and constant daily panic attacks from going through a break up for about 3 months, landed me in the psych ward for a weekend. I feel like I completely fucked up the concussion recovery.

Lazyscience - I'm trying man but I don't find enjoyment in anything I do anymore, I barely get out of bed, which is not me. I was always considered the really active/athletic, popular, wild/funny guy in my group of friends, but since that single night ive been bed ridden, lost so many friends out of avoidance.. Btw I appreciate all your replys, you seem to have input on everyone of my threads, thanks for that. I feel weak for asking so many questions cause this really is out of character, I consider myself a very judgemental person, well not anymore haha, but i'm in a rough situation, feel like i'll never be the same again.
 
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when you got your concussion did you go to the hospital? did you get a head scan? this could be brain damage from the injury.
 
Yeah a cat scan 2-3 months after, which is pretty useless. But it came back clean, i'm going to a neuroligist in a few days, i'm going to ask for an MRI.
 
doctors can only do so much for you man. think of this as an opportunity not a setback. you get to rebuild your mind the way you want it, but only because it 'accidentally' got set up in such a way that you need to consciously change it to get it functioning normally.

right now, your brain's function is way out of whack. learn how to modulate your brain function (without drugs) and get it to work in such a way that it serves you. you inadvertently put yourself in this situation, now it's your job to deliberately get yourself out of it.
 
Very true, I just find it real hard to do anything but sleep. My brain use to naturally learn and observe without me trying, I never really had control of my brain, only a portion, I always noticed how it naturally use to run against my will. Now I can't seem to get it working.. I don't understand situations/thinking patterns are different. I don't know which way to tackle things, and the anxiety from the XTC fucked me big time. I had to drop out of my 3rd year uni bc of it.. Do you think that what i listed eariler really fucked my recovery beyond its full repairable potential? Honestly now, because I think id be doing much better if I never used that last time.
 
no, I don't think the drugs messed up your recovery beyond repair. I think they opened up a vast realm of possibility that you wouldn't have had access to if your brain had merely returned to working the way it had been before your concussion.

start simple. sleep at night. be awake during the day. take walks outside. establish a routine. do things that you enjoy. the rest will unfold itself from there.

you can PM me if you want, I might be able to help you more if you need it.
 
Your brain is not damaged. You've just got a mild form of PTSD which is aggravated by worrying constantly over your mental state. Chill the fuck out, let yourself recover for a month or so, and you will be fine.

Don't waste professional's time with getting an MRI if a CT scan showed nothing. If a CT doesn't detect anything (i.e. gross structural; changes/bleeding) then a MRI won't either. The end result will only be more stress because you have to sit in a fucking tube for an hour or such etc etc.

This problem has happened to many, many, many users of psychedelics before and everyone comes up with wierd and wacky explanations for it. Includign brain damage, neurochemical imbalances, etc etc. In reality it's simply the normal flux of your personality when exposed to stressful events and the imbalance in horomones/neurochemicals caused by concentrating on that stress.
 
Any other opinions? I find it strange that such a dramatic change could happen mentally after one night and the insomnia persisting for 6 months, even after vigorous exercise, not to mention the lack of cognitive function..
 
It could be just a coincidence and you just began exhibiting symptoms of depression around the same time that you took those pills or had your concussion.

Some parents think that their children got autism BECAUSE they received immunizations, even though there are no studies that show a significant correlation. More likely, it was just coincidence that they were diagnosed with autism around the same time that they received their immunizations. Understandably, some parents felt that the coincidental timing was meaningful. Others thought it was just coincidental timing.

There are so many other factors that could be at play; physiologically, psychologically and emotionally.

All you can do at this stage; rather than worrying about the cause, is to address the reality of the situation and focus on living a healthy life.

Eat a vegetable-rich diet (kale, chard green smoothies, etc.), reduce (or preferably eliminate) refined sugars, starches, wheat, gluten, animal proteins and fats from your diet, exercise regularly, mediate, de-stress and find peace in life. Living well will transform your life in time; and you will feel better than ever over time.

Your diet and exercise lifestyle play much more of an important role in your life than what pills you consumed in your life.

Focus on the present. Not the past.
 
NO taking 2 pills once off would not have any long lasting effects other than your own mind creating problems that are not actually there in reality or a completely different and likely unrelated problem existing.

Nobody here can help you any further.

If its really bothering you then go and see a doctor for the only opinion that will really count.
 
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