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sexgod or skank
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I wonder if I have been callous, or if my justifications really make any sense?
We were friends for years. When we met we would fool around mainly and he continued blow me and every so often really ever since then even though our relationship developed into a friendship more than just a casual hook up over the years. He loved to pleasure, and this is the type of gay guy I get along with. He was always more of a slut than I was meeting guys he barley knew and staying up all night smoking crack and getting fucked by them, although recently he has cooled down a little.
I thought he understood we were just friends, he was much older than me and we often talked about how a relationship wouldn't work together, but to be honest that was really probably a backwards way of flirting with the idea.
Well I had a couple of super slutty days myself, just for the fuck of it, with no intention of hurting my friend whatsoever, but his feelings about what I did made it clear he had feelings for me that I had no idea about, he said it made him sick to his stomach, and that he couldnt talk to me for a long time, I havnt heard from him for a few days since this all happened.
Because its maybe relevant, here what I did that he was so hurt by: The first day I hooked with two different guys, all just oral sex, mostly because I was bored, but both experiences served to reinforce what I already know, that I can so easily get a little extra from guys who are at least 5 to 15 years older my age that just adore my slender frame and humungous cock. It took me awhile to really accept how much some men are willing to do just so I let them please me, it doesnt seem right but at the same time it can turn me on. Haha sorry about but its true. Usually I just get them to be generous with the wine or weed or what have you, (occasionally fancy dinner but I am not even that classy). Reflecting later on how I fulfilled my need to stay a little buzzed by just having sex, the next days I decided to push my boundaries and go a little further. Iv been living off of rice and beans, so I figured this was the time to try it, I have flirted so close to prostituting myself, but that day I went all the way and made enough cash to buy and nice bit of weed and a couple of meals, all through oral sex. So Yes I tried out being a gay prostitute, and god damn was it easy money. Sex has never been inseparable from emotions like intimacy to me, in fact it has probably been much harder to connect sex to feelings of intimacy at times that I have been in relationships where I really wanted to get close to the other person. So I have always known in the back of my mind that prostitution was something I had to try, but now my friend is gone.
Because maybe this lacks enough questions to be a good topic, I will add a few at the end here, but really any opinions is what I am looking for. Anyway:
Do you think I was an ass? If you were that friend do you think you would understand my reasoning or just forget about me forever?
We were friends for years. When we met we would fool around mainly and he continued blow me and every so often really ever since then even though our relationship developed into a friendship more than just a casual hook up over the years. He loved to pleasure, and this is the type of gay guy I get along with. He was always more of a slut than I was meeting guys he barley knew and staying up all night smoking crack and getting fucked by them, although recently he has cooled down a little.
I thought he understood we were just friends, he was much older than me and we often talked about how a relationship wouldn't work together, but to be honest that was really probably a backwards way of flirting with the idea.
Well I had a couple of super slutty days myself, just for the fuck of it, with no intention of hurting my friend whatsoever, but his feelings about what I did made it clear he had feelings for me that I had no idea about, he said it made him sick to his stomach, and that he couldnt talk to me for a long time, I havnt heard from him for a few days since this all happened.
Because its maybe relevant, here what I did that he was so hurt by: The first day I hooked with two different guys, all just oral sex, mostly because I was bored, but both experiences served to reinforce what I already know, that I can so easily get a little extra from guys who are at least 5 to 15 years older my age that just adore my slender frame and humungous cock. It took me awhile to really accept how much some men are willing to do just so I let them please me, it doesnt seem right but at the same time it can turn me on. Haha sorry about but its true. Usually I just get them to be generous with the wine or weed or what have you, (occasionally fancy dinner but I am not even that classy). Reflecting later on how I fulfilled my need to stay a little buzzed by just having sex, the next days I decided to push my boundaries and go a little further. Iv been living off of rice and beans, so I figured this was the time to try it, I have flirted so close to prostituting myself, but that day I went all the way and made enough cash to buy and nice bit of weed and a couple of meals, all through oral sex. So Yes I tried out being a gay prostitute, and god damn was it easy money. Sex has never been inseparable from emotions like intimacy to me, in fact it has probably been much harder to connect sex to feelings of intimacy at times that I have been in relationships where I really wanted to get close to the other person. So I have always known in the back of my mind that prostitution was something I had to try, but now my friend is gone.
Because maybe this lacks enough questions to be a good topic, I will add a few at the end here, but really any opinions is what I am looking for. Anyway:
Do you think I was an ass? If you were that friend do you think you would understand my reasoning or just forget about me forever?
