Brick wall

[XkandiExbritEX]

I've shut myself put of everything in the world that I call home
and over whelming pain when I think back on yesterday.
I feel like I'm taking the back seat to the world
It seems like no one even cares.
Heart ach, Tears, Scars one the outside that will heal with time -
But others in my soul that shall never truly heal.
I have found an angel with a heart of gold,
and I feel that my walls are slowly crashing down
That I must now return to the so called reality
of this sick and twisted world-
Now I panic.
Which road do I choose?
The one that leads to the one that my heart desires
The one that risks rejection, depression, and
more fears on top of a bigger wall to be built?
Or the one that leaves myself in the dark,
Never knowing if he ever felt the same way towards me,
Yet safe way to prevent my heart from being smashed again.
Do I bring my walls down? Or build them higher then before?
Do I runaway from something that could be so beautiful...
or run towards it?
I want these walls to go away -
I want to live my life,
But with that choice comes pain-
With more pain might bring death to my already dying heart.

 

[XkandiExbritEX]

I let down those brick walls....
...and now the angel is in my life

 

[harraser]

*huggles* babe you dont know how happy it makes me to see you so content when we chat hun mmmmmwah love ya
-ant