I picked up my roommate I had in rehab and cruised over to a CA meeting in his area. It was cool. There were a bunch of guys he grew up with that are now clean there. Good people.
After the meeting we all went to this coffee house that holds meetings in the basement. It was karaoke night and it was PACKED with people in recovery.
I always isolate myself from others (whether I'm in recovery or in my addiction) and realize I need to break old/bad habits early in this game or I'll just end up fucking myself.
I was uncomfortable for most of the night hanging with so many strangers but eventually it got easier.
My rehab roommate is staying over tonight and we're gonna hit a meeting tomorrow during the day and then hit the meeting at the rehab tomorrow night.
His girl is still there and the girl I hooked up with there has two more weeks before discharge. We're excited we get to see them and they are excited they get to see us.
I know its dangerous to hook up with someone in rehab but these things happen (you'll read about my hook-up in my rehab journals)
Most likely the relationship with the girl I met will only be sexual but if it goes beyond that I won't complain. She's a good woman. We just need to be careful. Very careful. We still need to get to know each other much better. I don't want to interfere with her recovery and we both still have no idea who our real selves are so we NEED to keep other recovering addicts that have clean time around to keep us in check from bullshitting ourselves or, much worse, causing one or the other (or both) to relapse.
Anyway, its nice that I'm doing new things regardless of comfort level.
This is day two of my 90 meetings in 90 days. I've been clean before and never did a "90 'n' 90". This time around I NEED to follow suggestions. The "90 'n' 90" is one of them.
Caution must be exercised with this relationship even if it is just a sexual one.
After the meeting we all went to this coffee house that holds meetings in the basement. It was karaoke night and it was PACKED with people in recovery.
I always isolate myself from others (whether I'm in recovery or in my addiction) and realize I need to break old/bad habits early in this game or I'll just end up fucking myself.
I was uncomfortable for most of the night hanging with so many strangers but eventually it got easier.
My rehab roommate is staying over tonight and we're gonna hit a meeting tomorrow during the day and then hit the meeting at the rehab tomorrow night.
His girl is still there and the girl I hooked up with there has two more weeks before discharge. We're excited we get to see them and they are excited they get to see us.
I know its dangerous to hook up with someone in rehab but these things happen (you'll read about my hook-up in my rehab journals)
Most likely the relationship with the girl I met will only be sexual but if it goes beyond that I won't complain. She's a good woman. We just need to be careful. Very careful. We still need to get to know each other much better. I don't want to interfere with her recovery and we both still have no idea who our real selves are so we NEED to keep other recovering addicts that have clean time around to keep us in check from bullshitting ourselves or, much worse, causing one or the other (or both) to relapse.
Anyway, its nice that I'm doing new things regardless of comfort level.
This is day two of my 90 meetings in 90 days. I've been clean before and never did a "90 'n' 90". This time around I NEED to follow suggestions. The "90 'n' 90" is one of them.
Caution must be exercised with this relationship even if it is just a sexual one.