Jericovice
Greenlighter
Brand-Noob to BL so sorry no tips for ya
Greetings to all, it's a pleasure to be here.
The fact that this wasn't the first place I posted feels a bit silly. I meant to look for such a place at one point, and my brain must have filtered it out at least a dozen times when reading the forums list .
Even though I am new to BL I have looked at a couple other harm reduction sites in the past, just never joined. I immediately decided this is where I wanted to be after randomly browsing for 10 minutes and reading the BLUA (not encouraging SWIM was a big one thank you so much. It's so distracting) I can't explain how but while reading some posts I felt like I could almost "hear" the people who were writing them. I realized this was different than what I had seen before but can't really explain It just felt right.
I am married, have no children and am less than 30 years old. Have only lived in a few different states in the Midwest and South-West of the USA. Recently I started to whittle (poorly) and plan to keep at it. I have always really liked to do things outdoors, and I like it best when it's also sorta quiet. Not anything specific most of the time, could be reading in the sunlight, or going for a walk. Yet going outside the house isn't enough with the rest of the world hurrying by. Work is so much better I find after my wife and I escape from the world for a while. Especially if camping, hiking, or kayaking whenever possible.
The decision for me to look for a place like BL came just over a week ago. Even after trying group and solo sobriety programs I find it is hard to actually talk to most people about my use of drugs regardless of what or when it was. Even if it's something I haven't done for a long time, or specifically have been resisting. I had trouble when I started and ended up deleting several drafts without posting them, yet with BL the more I write the easier it gets. Probably due to the courage and honesty of some posts I have read so far.
I was a Heroine addict for some time, and have managed to stay clean for a little over a year so far. In the past I had tried a lot of other things without developing a problem. After about 6 months without anything hard. I made a stupid decision and used Meth thinking it was just the once. With H my ROA was IV, and I had used Meth the same way before and decided it just wasn't my thing. The rush that comes at first (which is still different) is really the only comparison I would make between the two. Which is the only sound reason I can give, besides having learned addictive tendencies that I am still trying to "reprogram" away. Once became twice, etc. Lately I use 3-6 times a month and while concerned I am not panicked about it yet. However I realized that most likely this can only last for so long if I continue.
Each time I log in I continue to find myself spending more time here. Focusing can be difficult sometimes as the overall amount of info and number of subjects available is amazing! I usually start with info threads and explanations for injection drugs and amphetamines. While focusing on those with simpler terms on how they affect you physically, mentally, and those about withdrawal symptoms as well. Probably a bit weird but I treat it like there is gonna be a test, so after I like to cool down by looking around nearly anywhere till a thread catches my eye. So far I really appreciate the community here. Eventually I do want to clean up once and for all, and I feel relieved and more confident about it knowing that BL and all of you will be there for me when that day comes.
Thank You for reading. I wish good things upon you, and those close to your heart.
Greetings to all, it's a pleasure to be here.
The fact that this wasn't the first place I posted feels a bit silly. I meant to look for such a place at one point, and my brain must have filtered it out at least a dozen times when reading the forums list .
Even though I am new to BL I have looked at a couple other harm reduction sites in the past, just never joined. I immediately decided this is where I wanted to be after randomly browsing for 10 minutes and reading the BLUA (not encouraging SWIM was a big one thank you so much. It's so distracting) I can't explain how but while reading some posts I felt like I could almost "hear" the people who were writing them. I realized this was different than what I had seen before but can't really explain It just felt right.
I am married, have no children and am less than 30 years old. Have only lived in a few different states in the Midwest and South-West of the USA. Recently I started to whittle (poorly) and plan to keep at it. I have always really liked to do things outdoors, and I like it best when it's also sorta quiet. Not anything specific most of the time, could be reading in the sunlight, or going for a walk. Yet going outside the house isn't enough with the rest of the world hurrying by. Work is so much better I find after my wife and I escape from the world for a while. Especially if camping, hiking, or kayaking whenever possible.
The decision for me to look for a place like BL came just over a week ago. Even after trying group and solo sobriety programs I find it is hard to actually talk to most people about my use of drugs regardless of what or when it was. Even if it's something I haven't done for a long time, or specifically have been resisting. I had trouble when I started and ended up deleting several drafts without posting them, yet with BL the more I write the easier it gets. Probably due to the courage and honesty of some posts I have read so far.
I was a Heroine addict for some time, and have managed to stay clean for a little over a year so far. In the past I had tried a lot of other things without developing a problem. After about 6 months without anything hard. I made a stupid decision and used Meth thinking it was just the once. With H my ROA was IV, and I had used Meth the same way before and decided it just wasn't my thing. The rush that comes at first (which is still different) is really the only comparison I would make between the two. Which is the only sound reason I can give, besides having learned addictive tendencies that I am still trying to "reprogram" away. Once became twice, etc. Lately I use 3-6 times a month and while concerned I am not panicked about it yet. However I realized that most likely this can only last for so long if I continue.
Each time I log in I continue to find myself spending more time here. Focusing can be difficult sometimes as the overall amount of info and number of subjects available is amazing! I usually start with info threads and explanations for injection drugs and amphetamines. While focusing on those with simpler terms on how they affect you physically, mentally, and those about withdrawal symptoms as well. Probably a bit weird but I treat it like there is gonna be a test, so after I like to cool down by looking around nearly anywhere till a thread catches my eye. So far I really appreciate the community here. Eventually I do want to clean up once and for all, and I feel relieved and more confident about it knowing that BL and all of you will be there for me when that day comes.
Thank You for reading. I wish good things upon you, and those close to your heart.
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