Boredom + loneliness = over eating

I can not stop eating for the life of me. 3 Hours after a huge meal (giant chicken burrito), I made another one even bigger. Why? Because i'm bored. I think when you're bored and have nobodyt o talk to, eating is an easy pleasure. It's hard. I have no energy or motivation because of bi polar and depression (i take small dosage of seroquel) so i barely leave my room. I find it hard to do anything because i feel it's not worth it, or i'd have to do it every day for months to see a result (changing my diet). The only thing i want is energy and motivation to do something. Drugs used to do it for me, but i'm 6 weeks clean so i haven't even had alcohol. I live with my mom and she goes away on the weekends so i sit at home, alone. I have no friends in my hometown because i;ve been a crazy person for years and nobody likes to be around me.

Right now, i'm putting all my hope in a powder mix i bought on the internet that is supposed to give you TONS of energy. People use it to work out, which is what i hope to do. Working out is a chore, after 10 minutes i get a headache and trying to get a good workout in gets harder. Personally, i feel so gross after i eat so much, but i can't stop myself. I think, "I've got nothing right now so i've got nothing to lose. Man, life sucks sober or high.

 

Story of my life, right there. What I've found works is keeping busy, but I have trouble on weekends: I cherish the downtime, but I wind up doing just that. Fortunately, I've been playing with raw food of late, so my constant eating has at least been a bit less calorie-dense

The hardest part of anything is starting. You say that it'll "take 6 months before [you] see a result", re: dieting; I disagree. If all you're doing is dieting, then it might take a bit to see a visible change in your appearance, but you'll feel better pretty quickly. I speak from personal experience. Also, with the workout thing: how much water are you drinking before and during your workout? Headaches can often be caused by dehydration. Also, if you have high blood pressure, that can cause sudden headaches while working out too.

Here's a quick workout that I've been doing lately. Takes zero equipment, and no more than 20 minutes to complete. Doesn't look like much, but by the end of those 20 minutes you'll be feeling something. You won't be working to exhaustion, so you can do it every day; just remember to stretch well afterwards. Once that workout gets easy, start adding sets and/or time to each sub-set. Then, once you have a proper habit in place you can start looking into either harder bodyweight stuff or weight-resistance training.

The key is small, incremental changes. Don't do anything huge, but every time you make a positive change, keep doing it every day so that a habit is built. Believe me, it won't take long at all before it starts to feel weird to not work out-- just don't take any 'rest days' for the first few weeks. They're only really necessary if you're working to exhaustion, ditto for splits and the like. Trying to jump to step 7 without a solid foundation in steps 1-6 is setting yourself up for failure, and you deserve better than that.