Bodily Fluids and Opiates (Don't read if you don't have a strong stomach.)

When one is an opiate/opioid addict, one becomes acquainted with all manner of their own disgusting bodily fluids. Things one can never really imagine coming from within are expelled with a mighty force; one can liken this to an exorcism of sorts. Perhaps even your body screaming, "No! Stop! Before it's too late!"

But I was never one to listen to what people tell me to do. Not even to myself. You say up, I say down. You say left, I say right. Ad nauseum.

The first one is vomit. Usually, when one is new to opiates, one will puke after using every single time. Some people become accustomed to the opiate nausea and do not puke anymore and some people puke every single time. It's really a crap shoot. [Har har.] Also, when one is sick from lack of opiates when one has a physical dependence, vomiting is very common as well. So you get used to that pretty quickly. I'm sure most people have drank alcohol to the point of vomiting or else have had a stomach flu at one point in their lives. I personally have a history of bulimia, so vomiting is not something that scares me. However, I did just vomit a great deal of yellow bile all over my bathroom. That was awesome.

Next up, urine. Urine retention is a side effect when using opiates! Sometimes, you can sit on the toilet for 15 minutes and not squeeze out a single drop. It's very uncomfortable and damaging to your kidneys and body in general. Once you finally go, however, sweet relief!

Now... feces. There's incredible amounts of constipation. Stool impaction. Ripping of the anal lining. Etc, etc. One must try to be as hydrated as possible and eat enough fiber so as to maintain a semblance of normal bowel movements. When in withdrawals, this rock hard stool turns into basically pissing out of your ass. It's fantastic, especially when it's the 6th time that day. Can anyone say hemorrhoids?!

Then there is sweat. You sweat more and get overheat while high on opiates as well as when withdrawing from opiates. You may find you can soak an entire sheet in an hour. You don't know whether you're hot or cold or both.

Tears, when in withdrawal, will stream down your face as if you were watching Titanic for the first time while holding your dead dog.

Mucus will stream from your nose while in withdrawal and you will feel like you're in 2nd grade again.

And that, my friends, is that. If you're a female there's the bonus of having your period! Which is just sublime when you're dope sick. Trust me. I know.

I apologize for having written that, but I had to get it out of my head because I'm so fucking disgusted. I just puked a bunch of bile all over my bathroom. It was awesome.
 
Yeah opiate withdrawal is not fucking pretty that's for sure. I can't imagine dealing with it while being out on a date or having a girl over. I bet she would leave in disgust when i'm constantly running to the bathroom to shit. Luckily there's immodium which is a fucking life saver in these type of situations
 
Oh man, the yellow bile... shudders

That reminds me of one time I was sitting on the toilet to pee out of my sore ass for the 10th time that day when my already empty stomach decided to expel what little it had in there. My stomach leaked out what looked like water all over my floor (I have yellow tiles on the floor) and I figured that it had to be water since the only thing I had tried to put into my stomach since I last puked 20 minutes ago was water. I tried sopping it up with a white towel and quickly turned it bright yellow much to my surprise. Boy oh boy I sure do not miss being physically dependent.

Hope you get through it soon, W/Ds fucking suck. Are you trying to get clean this time or do you just not have any drugs atm? Good luck whatever the case
 
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