I had a good sleep after last night's trip. Now that I'm fully aware that I'm alive and didn't pass to the after life I can explain how the trip went.
Ive only taken this strain once before and that was 1.5g. It was the most intense trip I've had until last night.
Im used to taking 3 to 4 g of penis envy and they are mellow compared to the albino bluey vuitton. These little fuckers are strong and 2g was almost to much.
I got home from work and cleaned the house and did dishes. Even though I wasn't going to be tripping in the living room I wanted it to feel clean.
I proceeded to nibble on the 2g one shroom at a time, 2 small shrooms and 1 bigger one. over the course of about 30 minutes. I sat down and waited for the body high to kick in.
When it hit, it hit hard. Everything was distorted and wavy with flashes of light everywhere.
I decided to go lay down in my room with the lights off and see where this trip would take me.
I visited flashes of memories from dead relatives and friends that have been gone a long time. I couldn't see their faces, but I could feel a presence. I could feel the feeling in the room where we last seen each other or used to hang out. Some happy memories, and some not so happy.
At one point I felt as though these people were sent here to guide me to the afterlife.
Old relatives began materializing and I could see faint figures coming in and out of existence.
Then things got scary. My dog, (half pugg and half bost mix) decided she wanted to shove her flashing fetch toy in my face.
That's when my stomach let me know I needed to poop. And I needed to poop now.
I flung the blankets off and rushed to the toilet barely making it in time. The visuals were so intense that I could barely hold on. I didn't recognize the bathroom. At one point I felt as if I was in the bathroom in the house I grew up in ad a child.
I also couldn't stop shitting.
It felt as if I was in there for hours. I finally got around to cleaning my butt and venturing out to the living room.
At that point I felt as if the trip was coming to an end. Nope, it got scary fast. The visuals kicked in even harder. I looked at my hands and they looked puffy. Im a skinny guy, so my thought process told me my heart was beginning to fail and these were my last moments. I sat in my chair and held my annoying dog and told her I loved her and began apologizing for leaving her like this.
I closed my eyes convinced I was dying. Big mistake. I began to see evil spirits coming to get me. It was a very dark feeling and I was convinced I was going to hell and these spirits were there to take me there. I had completely ruined my life. I used up all my chances to make things right and this was my fate.
I was afraid to close my eyes but the visual distortion was so bad it was making me nauseous. I got up to puke and felt like I had projectile vomited in the sink but nothing came out. I could feel the cold liquid I just drank come up and out, but it didn't.
I was so convinced I was gonna dye that I filled my dogs food dish up, even though she ate when I got home from work. Filled her water bowl to the max and sat down waiting to dye.
Luckily I didn't die and the trip eased up over the next 30 minutes. I began to come back to reality and reflected on what this trip meant.
I wouldn't consider it a bad trip but it was a very difficult one. it showed me I need to continue to work on being a better person.
Im not the person I was but there is areas that still need improvement.
Thank you for reading.