In the past 18 months I've been a complete wreck when it comes to a past relationship of mine. So much so that i even got into another relationship and too it way too quickly which is something i occasionally do ALOT lol...
I did have alot of great advice in that period from a few people on here so thanks guys...
Strange thing is that I've now been giving out those tips and advice to my two best mates from primary school...
After both just breaking up with thier girlfriends i've told them, if you think, and honestly think that you she's the one you can see your self with for a long time from no onwards, don't give up on it, because trust me, I've been thier and you'll do nothing but regret it for a long time to come.
On the other hand, if you're sure that she's NOT the one, and 3, 6, 9, 12 months down the track you start getting a little feeling in both your heart and head that you've made a mistake, do every fucking thing possible to get that thought out of you as quckly as possible, because it will eat away at you, trust me it almost destroyed me and by that i'm talking of doing something to myself that i shouldn't be doing.
I know it sounds silly, but all my life i sort of day dream. Although it's scenarios, and i'm kinda like the director, I take all of the people in my life, and play out a whole scene. For example, once when I had this feeling/thought eating away at me, I started playing this whole scenario in my head about going round to my ex's and she dumped her b/f to get back with me. These little "plays" can go on for like 2-3 days, I sort of "pause" them when I need to concentrate on something, then go back to it later.
All in all I think I would like to be back in a relationship, because I have been an absolute disgrace lately when it comes to girls, at work I'm known as the (Insert Company Name) Slut. It was something that I used to take some great pride in, knowing that as long as she was single (sometimes not) I'd have a crack at her whilst we were out, and 95% of the time I'd get the girl. I think it's just time to start looking for something more than a one nighter, or even a continous one nighter. I need more substance than that, I need to actually try and love again.
Thank god I have an e-boyfriend so I am not a true spinster.
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