i know the rules. i play the game. i fantasize. i dream. i fall in love. i fall out of love. i have fights. i have sex. i kiss. i hug.
all without a boyfriend/girlfriend.
current status: like a boy. like a girl. both have partners. i *know* the boy likes me - but that doesn't stop him acting like an asshole. i *think* the girl likes me - but that doesn't give me much to go on.
I finally get the courage to ask someone out, and I get that they think the world of me, and that things are complicated atm. So basically a nice way of saying lets just be friends darling. I think i translated that bit of "woman talk" correctly.
bless your little cotton socks deeCee if i were single and in melbourne i would go out with you in a second! (ps il be in melbourne weekend after next)
I don't know what's wrong with me. I've been saying for ages that all i want is to meet a boy who finds me beautiful , loves me for ME and wants to keep me (as in wants something permanant) and i find one and it's freaking me out and scaring me that he feels all this about me so soon!
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because women are typically, notoriously and almost traditionally passive agressive in their behaviour in relationships. women self-confessedly ask and tell men to do the direct opposite of what they actually want them to do. Some do it sub consciously, and some are more than aware of the fact that they are sending men mixed messages with the hope and also expectation set that they will be able to decipher them, as well as then implement the correct mode of action.
Not only this - but this attitude is tolerated by other women and men alike - unfathomable for a man to send these messages - that would be lying or not communicating enough or correctly....of course...of course
it makes me so mad that i have to actively compensate for this natural instinct that i feel...
women suck sometimes
sure men have gender specific bad traits too....but this one i believe is deservedly typically female
i'm crap.
seriously.
someone kick me up the ass.
i whinge my lungs out about being single.
now i have 2 potential relationships, and i've decided that i'm not really ready for either of them.
^ Kazaa - You seem like a nice enough chick and everything but you seem to suffer these problems consistently! I think before you start crying over what you want out of other people again, you need to evaluate what you want in yourself. I often read your journals/ posts and it seems nothing is ever good enough. Take a step back, maybe enjoy the singles life for a while - go out and have casual sex/ find a more permanent fuck buddy etc.
You don't "have" to always go from one extreme to the other - a middle ground is also available. Use this time to evaluate what you really want in life (since you seem so confused), and just take things gradually.
As someone else said one time (think it was Addikal): "Being single, doesn't mean being alone".
Fuck buddies seems to be the "trend" at the momment anyhow (at least around people I know) - there's not a shortage of potentials out there.
yes, i am confused
the problem is i have no idea what i want.
i think i do, and then it comes my way and i decide its not what i'm looking for after all.
i do know i'm sick of meaningless sex. its good in a way, i mean it releives my sexual frustration. but i've had my time of going through fling after fling. its not what i'm after anymore.
i think i over analyse too much.
^ Who says fuck buddies is meaningless sex? I mean fair enough if it is for you... I'm shocked that so many people refer to it as meaningless sex though - no wonder it's not enjoyable for those people, I'd feel rather used if I felt no meaning behind a sexual act.
For me, it's an intimate, passionate momment - sharing yourself with another person, them sharing themselves with you. Holding each other closely, looking into each others eyes - feeling the pleasure each of you is experiencing, enjoying it, loving it, embacing it.
Remembering: That's all it is!
Unattatched sex is a far superior way of describing it.
i guess it's just that i'd rather share what you describe with someone i cared deeply for.
if i want sex, and just sex, i'll find it, but there won't be any connection other than physical from my perspective. therefore i deem it meaningless.
^^^I am inclined to agree, although sex is wicked (Wicked wicked awesome) if there is no meaing with it and is only the grappling of two bodies then it leaves me feeling shallow afterwards.