UnSquare
Ex-Bluelighter

One day after I post a pic of my fiancee' and myself....
20 months 13 days after our first kiss, in the rain, both of us
drenched and hugging after talking all night on a wharf by a
beautiful river... early morning sun poking holes through the clouds.
She has called off our engagement.
I am so heartbroken I don't know what to do.
She has agoraphobia and massive depression/anxiety
and has been admitted to hospital numerous times.
She is on Luvox, Respidel, Xanax, Valium.
I have ALWAYS been there for her.
I have ALWAYS showered her with praise, gifts and love.
She wants freedom, she 'wants to be friends'.
She was a virgin until I met her, I was not not, and she wants
to experience other people, yet she claims she's still in love with me.
I can't believe this is happening.
I join the single ranks.




Do I rush out and try and fill the hole with mindless sex?
Do I curl up in a ball and die?
I wanted to spend the rest of my life with her.
This is SO FUCKED!