So I've been popping pills for a short while now on a semi regular basis. I go through stints of a break here a break there a binge here a binge there. The least I get of a break is a week. The most I get is around 3 months. on average I would say I probably get somewhere between 3 to 4 weeks in between my rolls. On this particular roll I had a two or three week break. (You know you're an Etard when you cant even remember how long it has been since you last rolled)
I was beginning to find my self unable to get high like I used to when I first started rolling. Every time I would drop a pill I would be SOOOO disappointed. I found that rolling really lacked that feel good in love with the world, everything is amazing, I love everything and every thing feels so good to me, while my eyes wiggled and my body writhed in ecstasy pleasure that MDMA once was for me.
I didn't even really have the urge to roll all that often anymore because of what the experience seemed to lack now. It never occurred to me that perhaps the quality of pressed pills had drastically deteriorated since I first started dropping pills on a regular basis. I just automatically assumed that I too was loosing the magic![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
After all I was testing my pills and checking PR so I was pretty sure of what I was getting in my pressed pills. But this last Friday night my entire point of view changed. I'm relieved to know that I am not loosing the magic, pressed pills are all for the most part JUST CRAP NOW!
So Friday night comes around and me and my friends are trying to find some pills so we can drop. We talk to a few different people and find out what's what and what the best deal out there is. Once all is said and done I end up pretty excited because we end up finding pokey balls. I drop two on an empty stomach. A half an hour into it I'm like, "Holy Shit I'm coming up harder than I normally peak.!"
I was in the zone. I remember feeling like I might not be able to handle the peak because of how high I already was just from the come up! Then the come up leveled out and I was peaking.
Normally when I'm peaking I am thinking about how high I AM NOT and how much higher I would like to be. This peak is different. During this peak I am totally thinking about how good I feel and how I don't even want or need another pill. I am balls to the wall off of just two pills. I can hardly even move I am so floored. I felt SOOOO good.
Once I get done peaking I pop another and its ballz to the wallz again. Once the third pill kicks in me and my girl chop up one pill and snort it between the both of us. I have no idea of a time table for this one other than I dropped my first two pills at 11pm and at 6am I was walking into the store to buy beer. Then I fell asleep. I don't know anything else about a time line. That is how high I was all night long.
I was beginning to find my self unable to get high like I used to when I first started rolling. Every time I would drop a pill I would be SOOOO disappointed. I found that rolling really lacked that feel good in love with the world, everything is amazing, I love everything and every thing feels so good to me, while my eyes wiggled and my body writhed in ecstasy pleasure that MDMA once was for me.
I didn't even really have the urge to roll all that often anymore because of what the experience seemed to lack now. It never occurred to me that perhaps the quality of pressed pills had drastically deteriorated since I first started dropping pills on a regular basis. I just automatically assumed that I too was loosing the magic After all I was testing my pills and checking PR so I was pretty sure of what I was getting in my pressed pills. But this last Friday night my entire point of view changed. I'm relieved to know that I am not loosing the magic, pressed pills are all for the most part JUST CRAP NOW!So Friday night comes around and me and my friends are trying to find some pills so we can drop. We talk to a few different people and find out what's what and what the best deal out there is. Once all is said and done I end up pretty excited because we end up finding pokey balls. I drop two on an empty stomach. A half an hour into it I'm like, "Holy Shit I'm coming up harder than I normally peak.!"
I was in the zone. I remember feeling like I might not be able to handle the peak because of how high I already was just from the come up! Then the come up leveled out and I was peaking.Normally when I'm peaking I am thinking about how high I AM NOT and how much higher I would like to be. This peak is different. During this peak I am totally thinking about how good I feel and how I don't even want or need another pill. I am balls to the wall off of just two pills. I can hardly even move I am so floored. I felt SOOOO good.
Once I get done peaking I pop another and its ballz to the wallz again. Once the third pill kicks in me and my girl chop up one pill and snort it between the both of us. I have no idea of a time table for this one other than I dropped my first two pills at 11pm and at 6am I was walking into the store to buy beer. Then I fell asleep. I don't know anything else about a time line. That is how high I was all night long.
